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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i just got off the damned phone with my mother. i really feel like wth. i dunno man. she kept forcing me to go for the mtps. then i dont want to go. then she started scolding me. like whats her damn problem? then it all went back to the she read my inbox thing. ohyah, and she thinks that she is not in the wrong. she just kept freaking saying "im not in the wrong, im ur mum, i have the right to know what ure doing outside" oh freak her lar seriously. she invaded my privacy and she said that. damnit man, did i not tell her everything? every guy that i like and everything else, i tell her EVERYTHING. and she freaking hell come and say all these. and say i dont tell her stuff. yes, im never gonna tell her anything anymore. and WOW, shes not in the wrong. she didn even think of how i feel lar. bloody hell. she just kept scolding me. yah and im WRONG. I WAS WRONG TO TRUST HER. no pincode or anyth in my phone. i even asked her to help me bring the phone to my room cause i left it charging. i didn off the phone and neither was there pin code. and I TRUST HER SO MUCH. and she betrayed it by reading my messages. AND IM WRONG. IM IN THE WRONG HUH. YES IM SO DAMN FREAKING SORRY OKAY. seriously just freak off. and you start dragging in all the "i give u so much freedom" shit. and yah, did i not respect that? did i become soem chao ah lian, am i getting f9s for every sub? do i have a serious attitude problem. do i not come home? do i shout at my family members? do i mix around with bad company? am i not sensible enough. haven i been making right choices al this while. AND FREAK, u accused me time and again. freak. oh ure hurt, and im not. i trusted the wrong person. you betrayed my trust and im not hurt? so what if ure my mother, means u can do this? darn. and u said u will apologise if uncle thinks that ure in the wrong. and why should i accept the apology? u arent even sincere. u dont think that ure in the wrong then whats the point of an empty apology? and all those bullshit about my character being too strong. oh thank you. be thankful that u dont have a daughter who gets bullied out there. and u claimed that u dont want me to get bullied. i didn and i nv will. and thanks for making me wanting to get further away from you. and u said either i go with u or the mtps is off. let it be off then. i can collect my report book myself. complain to uncle all u want. all ur accusations are nothing but bullshit. so go ahead. delude yourself. HAVE FUN. and u think that ure such a good parent. oh please, i think u need to talk to a counsellor. ur parenting method is oh so FANTASTIC huh. YOU DONT EVEN NOE ME THAT WELL AFTER ALL.

OH WELL, i need to cool down and be rational. no point crying over this shit anymore. i aint gonna give a damn. she freaking ruined my perfect day.

SO IM GONNA BLOG ABT MY PERFECT DAY NOW.

todays wed. oh i was nearly late in the morning. all thanks to the damned bus for being soooo late. hmm english was up first. so nth much. miss mano scolded us abt the poor results. then edmund and i were just chatting and doodling. hmm then finished my english work and i slept. then miss mano knocked my table. scare me lah, i jumped. -_-" it was super cold in class. then i asked chengkai to off the fan.

"chengkai! off the fan please!"
"huh, i only have a few pieces left"
"HUH? can help me off the fan? HAPPY BIRTHDAY"
"im sorry. im a selfish person"
"HUH! CAN U HELP ME OFF THE FAN PLEASE"
"im sorry, but i cant give you"
"HUH!!!!!! CAN U JUST OFF THE FAN?!?!?!"

then miss mano offed it. chengkai thought i asked him for foolscap. -____________-" but anyway, today is his birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENG KEE.

hmm miss mano threatened to book mund n linn. super funny lar. haha but in the end, the nice her didn of course. haha

amath next. nth much. learnt integration. say ure proud of me. cause i paid attention today. although i was dozing off. but i know how to do! haha then it was lit. BORING AS USUAL. hmm, i ate alot during lit man. haha hmm nth much. usual funny stuff. miss hia was like "VEN CAN U STOP EATING?!" then ven "orr okayy" with his mouth full. even miss hia laughed lar. haha

hmm recess. then ss. i slept AGAIN. and mr ow called me. scare me man. but i went back to sleep. was really tired. 3 nights of msn games till 12 plus 1 plus and 2 plus. haha -_-" hmm then was chem. alright, so my chem result totally sucked. its the only paper that i freaking studied for. although i only managed to read thru the first 6 chapts. but my result really sucked. OH CHEM, my favourite :(( i just passed the paper lar damnit. lets hope the practical will pull up my marks. OH DARNIT. hmm haha

then after school. slacked at the locker with christine and esmonde. talked a fair bit to kennedy. hmm yah. then after that, went to join the juniors. then their trg started. and poor yujia lost her shoebag, OUTSIDE THE STAFF ROOM. so we walkd around looking for it. then we cant find it. then i decided to leave school at abt 3.50pm. i wait until i dont wanna wait alr. hmm so i was walking out then i met my brother desmond. then was talking to him. then he was so sweet. he was like "BYE JIE, I LOVE YOU" haha (: hmm, yujia walked me out. then after that BLAH BLAH BLAH :))

hmm im super tired now. and my eyes are hurting. ahh damn. nvm, i shall be happy! no point being upset right! so im happy!

`sheranne! BE HAPPY OKAY OKAY!! love you! (:

`yujia! dont be sad okay! u'll find ur shoebag tmr! (: and thanks for walking me out! love!

`hmmmmm, GET WELL SOON! (:

`esmonde tan, thanks for lending me ur phone! i didn read ur smses at all. i didn even think of it. im so nice. unlike my mum. okay nvm. haha

`KHOO XUENING! CONGRATS SPIDER! im so proud of you! xuening made it to the under 15s team! ((: i love you spider! train hard!

`enshao! be happy okay! everything wil be just fine! (:

im happy (:

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5/17/2006 10:45:00 PM