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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

heyy all.

didn blog yesterday. not really in the right state to blog. everythings screwed up. really. my life is like i dunno man, what the hell.

so yah. leon, jem, nic and cor came over to stay. we talked and all. did some work and stuff. and they kept trying to sabo me. cause i plugged out the fish tank plug to charge my phone. then they kept trying to draw my gran's attention to the fish tank. then it was super funny. we kept laughing like shit. then my gran was watching tv. then she went to sweep the floor after she watched finish. then we were laughing and laughing. so yah. thern i kept asking my gran to go and sleep. then jem kept "fish tank fish tank" idiot man. last time i unplugged the thing, then i forgot to put it back for 2 hours. then one of her fish died.

so yah. jem was playing cards with bearjay, corinne's bear. he was like, "im gonna win you, aiyah u win again. i cant believe i lost to a dumb bear, damnit, you win again. how can i lose to a stupid bear"

so yah. watched the match. at the 7th minute, zidane scored. then jem was like "im supporting france now" "why? because france's winning?" then leon said "no, because italy's losing" neo came later. he said that my lift was scary. ya. then while watching the match. leon fell asleep first, then jem then corinne. then neo was falling asleep but he didnt. yah. neo had to leave at four plus. cause he was afraid that his mum will wake up.

so neo went off. nic and i stayed up to watch everything. then the two of us were screaming and doing all kinda funny actions to beg that italy will not score the penalty. and damn, out actions brought them luck instead. they freaking scored five out of five. ahhh

so yah. chatted with nic. then her dad insisted on fetching her home. which was damn dumb. it was alr 5 in the morning. so everyone napped for a while. i woke up half an hour later and bathed and everything. woke everyone up at six. leon was waking jem up. "jem, wake up. need to go school alr" "no need lah" and he went back to sleep.

i thought we would be late. but we werent. and i was feeling damn happy cause i wasnt going to school alone.

we were damn early in fact. so school started. i didn sleep during math. can you believe it? i was so damn upset that i didn even feel like sleeping. sighs. then pe was nxt. did some dumb survey. and i kept sleeping. every next i click, i will fall asleep for a few seconds. so then went for pe. 15 minutes. so dumb. and we played rugby. we didn even play. we just threw the damn ball a few times.

recess, i ate sth. i did. then ss. mr ow wasn around. i just slept thru out. the relief teacher came to wake me up twice. i was damn pissed off, i dunno why. everything had been so bad then i was like "im damn freaking tired lah!" then he just left me alone. the second time he came, i felt liek punching him. then grace was like "cher, shes sick" then yah. he left me alone. after that was chem. i suddenly became very happy. cause i got sms. its like i can be so happy just because of a simple sms. this is how bad things are. okay, nvm. i think u guys dont get it.

life skills was next. had some talk in the lecture theatre. elis and i kept laughing at ppl sleeping. joshua toh. yongzhi. yongzhi was freaking funny i tell u. u should have seen how he slept. hes like totally facing the right. and like kissing junyang. then yongzhi did some funny stretching thing then i was staring at him thru out, wondering what is he gonna do next. he took his geog book and slept behind it. then miss liang went over to pull his ear. then his whole class laughed. it was super funny.

after school. went for lunch with jie, josh, lanz, elis, char and nat. pretty alright. the sec ones stood in one line opp the road and shouted "hello senior kimberley" theyre so cute lah. bought jellybeans for her. then watched the juniors trained. i was a lil upset, cause i was lied to. wells. then celebrate salad's bday. then there wasnt capt ball so i went home first.

wanted to sleep, but didn. smsed thru out and i cried like shit. my gran must be thinking why am i crying everyday. sighs. it hurt so bad. worse than anything ever before. it hurt like when i broke up with him. it was unexpected but i began to expect it. and what i thought was true was really true. and sighs, it sucks, so freaking bad.

slept pretty late.

this mornin, was alright. took breakfast and everything. chapel was fine. rather funny. i like the pastor. math was next. chye aik said i look awake. perhaps. englush was alright. i didn hand in miss mano's work. shes a liar. she said that if u dont want to do, u can dont do. i never do, she wanted to book me. recess was alright. didn want to eat but i forced myself to. in case i become anorexic. that wil be a nightmare. though my uncle said that im fat. idiot man.

bio test was scrwed up shit. i didn touch bio at all lah. and i know no shit about heredity. sighs. just did the paper based on whatever i can think of and recall. got back chem quiz. i was surprised that i didn fail. i got 14 out of 17. really amazing.

didn go for math. had chinese orals. i didn feel scared at all. thank god. i was waiting and waiting and i fell asleep. then yah. i was damn excited when my turn was coming. i think im mad. i was so damn excited but i didn even feel scared. my heartbeat was perfectly normal. until i went to the examiners. one of them didn want to smile at me. and that made my heart accelerate. i didn had much to say. and i did pretty badly for the passage. so yah, th teachers didn smile at me. and they let me go after like about 2 minutes plus? and they gave me this look as if i said wrongly. and they asked me five questions. i screwed up my chinese oral. big time. sighs. i didn want to come to school. i knew i will screw it up.

went to tzone with elis after that. had lunch. then went home with elis and someone. then yah. i slept all the way till 9.40.

feeling horrible right now. im sinking into depression.

> joel, thanks for the message. it was really sweet. i was real touched. love

> clement, thanks for the lil chat last night. its nice to know that u care. and the effort u made to cheer me up. and even the lame sms. thanks. loveee

> dino, you have never been so enlightening ever before. perhaps its cause i didn realise. but thanks for being there, always. im really glad to have a pet like you. like really. always cheering me up. being lame with me. those lame smses, the phone call. all the stupid msn conversations. i love you dino.

> mund choo. although i didn tel you what happened. and im really sorry for that. but i love you best friend. you just made me smile everytime. just seeing you makes me smile. i love ur sunshine smile idiot.

> elis, things have been real bad, you know. my bestest bestest bestest best friend. u know every single thing. and i really want to thank you for being there. really like ALWAYS. i love you, so damn freakin much.

> sheranne, thanks for everything too. that sms also. i know you care. thanks. and i love you, so duper much. thanks.

> jaclyn, the girl who always take sides with me. hey darling, we have drifted away a bit. but we started talking again. and yah, things arent great for the both of us. but i wanna tell u that i love you alright. and i will always be there for you. thanks for the smses and stuff. love you.

> how i wish things will be back to normal. and i wish the hurt will just disappear. sighs.

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7/11/2006 11:32:00 PM