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Sunday, August 20, 2006

say youre proud of me? cause im home so early. haha

it was just another mad chatting session last night with joel. clement called at like 4 in the morning? if i was asleep i would have punched his face. haha joel and i chatted al the way till about five? i logged out at 5.10. and i decided to nap for 30minutes (: and then i can get up and go to kallang! so i decided to sleep in the living room. and the smart me woke up at 7.20!?!? supposed to reach kallang at 7.15 lah. so i rushed like some mad person. and cabbed down to kallang. reached before eight. cab fare FIFTEEN BUCKS. ouch heart pain man.

and the worst thing was that "kim, we only need to register at 10" AHH i tell you. my heart just piang. my fifteen bucks. hah

hmm so yah. i was so damn tired. had macs for breakfast.

finally the clock struck ten. got ready and stuff. alright. shant go into details about what happened lah huh. just that its really so damn dumb. fairfield has nv been kicked out of a carnival in the first round know. and today we lost 5 out of six. of which we could have won at least four? ohwells. its quite a big blow aye.

and i was sooooooooo super pissed off with that damnnnnnnnnn bloody UGHHH. whats her damn problem. ATTITUDE US FOR WHAT. BIG AH?! u think u cannot shoot u very big isit? cannot shoot still purposely dont want go practise. how many freaking shots u missed man? and u were like the old you, not going for rebounds and all. just seeing the ball go and a smile will appear on your face. has it ever occurred that the midfielders and defenders have to work darn hard to bring the ball down? and you miss the shot? and it becomes a turnover? think about us lah. we ran so much. and you? you play every single quarter the distance u run also cannot cover the distance we run in just a single quarter alright. ahh im so darnit pissed off. still sms me some shit in the morning. thats why i didn reply you. damn. ahhh freaking pissed off man. i hate that freaking face. tell me you worked as hard as us and i'll let it go.

alright, enough. we are just gonna IGNORE her. damnit.

alright. so i was sleeping. i was so damnit tired. i slept whenever i have the chance to. and i was sleeping. suddenly mel woke me up and threw me the bib. then i huh? then i "siao lah. i just woke up" HAHA damn funny. i also dont know why. i said it damn loudly somemore lah. then i was darn blur. wore my bib and went on court. so paiseh. haha

so after everything. changed and all. then off to lunch. kfc was so crowded and stuffy. so monkey jia and i went over to macs. senior jocelyn came over to join us. ahh those girls in front of us bought so much. and we had to wait in queue for so long. i wanted to throw my shoes at them man. hah.

OHYES! AND I SOOOOOO HATE EXTREMES. bunch of ARROGANT assholes. its like we were playing rojak can? i was like playing goal attack? yujia goal keeper? darn rojak lah. we just played for fun. then the freaking gorilla went "OH, STEADY BOM BEEP BEEP" smack you ah.if we really played properly we wouldnt lose by so much at least. what a sucker. I HATE THAT DUMB THING. freaking gorilla, YOU STINK.

ahh anyway. lunch was fine. i had macs again. AGAIN. -_-" twice in a day. i feel those fats. EEW. anyway. xinyi wanted to go to the beach. as in she asked if we wanted go somewhere to relax and sort out our thoughts. so we decided to go to the beach. haha in the end, we ended up at home. we were far too tired. ahh im so damn tired. haha

alright. i must hurry blog finish then im going to bed. haha perhaps i will sleep till tmr? HAHA.

ohyah! im supposed to blog about friday!

FRIDAY
ohh. friday. hmm chem pract was first. miss liang wasnt around. so yah. it was like a free period. auntie ho was being such a pain in the ass.

hmm. then lit was next! YAY. haha lit was fun for the FIRST TIME! miss hia wasnt around. so there was this teacher who came. he was dressed in this BRIGHT BLUE COLLARED TEE. with DRAGON, FIRE AND ROCK. haha dam ah beng lah!.

"good morning class, my name is james. and sirname is tan. you can call me james or mr tan"
"hello james"
"alright, u al can choose to do your work or chit chat"
"chit chat!"

he wrote singapore idol on the board and discussed about it. haha and i got jacked like shit lah! damnit man. they kept saying i like him?! ahh haha.

mrs low was outside. and we were kinda noisy. so i told the class that mrs low was outside. james peeped outside. and said "I DONT GIVE A DAMN" and walked back to the table. "FOR THE REASON THAT THIS CLASS IS AIR CONDITIONED AND THEY CANT HEAR US OUTSIDE" hahaha can hear wan lah! hes damn funny man. then mrs low opened the door. he got a shock

"is everything okay?"
"SURE! everything is going fine. i just assigned them some work to do"

haha damn funny. you should have seen his expression lah! then he told us some story. haha and we kept describing miss hia. MISS HIA SO CUTE. hahaha. then we were saying later u get sack ah. then he "nvm its okay. they wont be able to sack me after today" haha cause it was his last day in fairfield. he seriously doesn look like he can teach lit. haha and he thought that penguin is married!

"mary is a horrible name. oops. anyone named mary here?"
"NO! but martha has a twin named mary!"
"oh no, can you please dont tell her what i said? or you can tell her on monday."

the bell rang. colin seow went "ONE DOWN! two more to go!" haha two more periods he meant. james said that he will release us at 9.45 to go for recess. darn funny lah. our lesson ends at 10.15 know.

then he read us a poem. he said that colin cant read the poem. but i think hes worse. colin reads well okay! HAHA in a weird way.

"read the first stanza"
"whats a stanza?"
colin, reading reading..
"i dont know if this guy's dead. but if he is. i think he will probably flip a few times in his grave if he hears the way you read"

HAHA SERIOUSLY, JAMES'S WORSE! HAHA he even skipped a whole stanza!

james, reading reading.

"err, james? where are you?"- mel
"urm im at"
"i cant find it"
"OH, YOU SKIPPED A WHOLE STANZA!"

HAHAHAHAHAH

"kim likes the guy whos reading the poem"
"okay nvm"
"kim likes the guy whos reading the poem"
"i know. apart from that?"

OMG LAH. i dont even like him! i just think that hes damn funny! haha and and he wears CHECKERED SOCKS. haha i dont know why. but im just damn amused by him. i kept on laughing at him man. haha

then he asked us to give word to describe miss hia. damn funny lah.

"give me some words and phrases to describe her and we will.."
"LEAVE IT ON THE BOARD!"
"no no, we will analyse them together"

haha. "3 car tires!" "teapot!" "she ate the seven dwarves!" "she spoils the weighing machine!" " snorlax!" "i can see my handphone number when she stands on the weighing machine!" haha it was so funny. we laughed and laughed lah.

"what a lively class" HAHAH

alright. then ss was fine. had some test. wrote three lines for each question. and i was off to dreamland. then mr ow asked me to use the textbook. haha i couldn be bothered lah. but i wrote much more anyway, with the help of the textbook. haha

math was alright. miss yeo wasn around. so this boring teacher came. and we didn give a shit about him. then bio was next. i was bored. so i slept again. it aint fun know. 17 hours in five days. im so hell tired man. hah.

after school. had a sumptuous lunch. then went to town. tried this forever 21 skirt. i like, i want (: haha. went back to school. played captains ball. haha we laughed like mad retards i tell you. hahah so funny lah.

nic and corinne are darn funny. one speaks CORINGLISH. which consists of "I DOES TAKE BIO", "HE PROVOKTED ME", "THIRTEEN MUSIC" and nic practises NICLISM. which is "IM SO TALL", "IM THE PRETTIEST", "IM HOT"

haha i thought of those for them (: yay. thank me! haha

alright. so we all got into some trouble at the end of the day. damn that freaking teacher. ohwells. perhaps we will have to stand at the front tmr. i hope not ): haha. so yah. off to dover for dinner. corinne, nic aileen and i.

so yah. ate, chatted and all. then aileen was like "can we execute now?"
then corinne went "WOAH, SO CHIM"
then nic went "yah lor"
then i "HUHHHHHH!" and i burst out laughing. hahahah damn funny lah.
"its evacuate lah! what execute!" hahaha
then everyone laughed like mad. then i "okay stop it. dont jack corinne lah. i DOES want to make her happy okay"

aileen was crazy afterward. christopher said that she was fat. then she kept whining. haha. she was eating her ice cream then she blamed us for walking so slowly, if not she wouldnt have got her ice cream. then i was like "I TOLD U NOT NICE DONT BUY RIGHT! THEN U STILL BUY!" haha that mad idiot. then when her bus came. she stood at the bus stop. then she stepped darn hard onto the bus. BOMP. haha damn funny i tell you! i laughed like mad lah. the bus driver was like shocked. haha

hah then yah bussed home and stuff.

> hmm neo ah neo. please cheer up okay. love you my great great friend. take care.

"just because a person does not love you the way you want him or her to, it doesn mean that he or she doesn love you with all he or she has"

it got me thinking, real hard.

it struck me. its so true. i felt as if you didn care. cause you didn treat me the way i wanted you to. and you kept on reassuring me that you care. but i just kept on saying that it seemed so empty cause they are but just words. its the actions that will make me feel cared for. argh. im sorry. i was so superficial.

hmm. slept real early today morning huh. was reading thru some msn conversations. and i realised that ahh. im so freaking mean. so freaking evil. so damn bad lah. ahh damn damn damn, im really really sorry. like what you said. its over alr anyway. but yah. i feel so bad. i really do. i know what i say now dont matter anymore. but yah, i feel bad. i treated u like some crap. like some damn present. my goodness. i placed myself in ur shoes and i thought thru. i was like ripping ur heart out. ugh damn. i feel like such an asshole. oh my. im so darnnnnnn sorry man.

i no longer have that strong desire to want us back. i mean i will love to have us back. if it happens then great. but if it doesnt then yah, let it be. hmm i dont know what happened man. perhaps im numbed. perhaps im too upset til i dont care anymore. i dont know. let nature take its course. quite sure that we wont be us again. hmm rather sad huh. bt yah. its not too bad being friends either. guess we will both be happy. i never want to let go but yah. its okay. i'll try to treat u like how i treated u before tenth april. im kinda scared tho. cos u were never angry with me. tho i scratched u, by accident and whacked u and stuff. but now, im scared that u will be angry if i disturb u like before. cause no matter what, things arent the same. hmm dont know man. hope that we can be together again, but i dont want it as bad anymore. i dont mind being good friends, just platonic good friends. hmm yupp

sorry for being such a bad girlfriend. for trying to push you away. for being upset with you most of the time. theres many misunderstandings. but yah guess its no point clearing up also. hah. thanks for all the fond memories. for all the sweet nothings and all. they were melting me up inside today morning. the memories, they are so so dear to me. i will love to hear you say "i love you" to me again. tho it wont ever happen i guess. so yah, all the best and take tonnes of care. im so darn sorry for treating u so badly. u were so darn nice. ahh im sorry alright. if we give ourselves another try, i wont treat you that way again. ohwells. im sorry. thanks for everything yah? thanks for not letting go, thanks for holding on so tightly when i wanted so much to end it. im so very sorry for being so selfish. for not thinking about your feelings, for insisting on pushing you to her, for ignoring all those really sweet stuff that you said to change my mind. im sorry. very very sorry. but yah, your love, your persistance. theyre sweet stuff. thanks. yah perhaps this is the final time i will say this to you, i love you.

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8/20/2006 07:18:00 PM