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Saturday, August 26, 2006

yeah. im home. i "STINKS" hahaha

ohwells. so i didn blog about ytd. so i shall start.

thursday
english was up first. mund choo didn come ): so yah. menglinn and i chatted like mad. haha 90minutes. and i tell you. from now onwards, for every vulgarity that he says, he owes me 10cents (:

three periods of chem next. did some gce o's paper. aye i was so happy lah. i got 30/35. minusing the macromolecules questions. cause i didn know anyshit and miss liang asked me to use textbook. heh. haha. i so love MISS LIANG. i so love CHEM (:

recess was pretty alright. i was kinda upset. then ss was next. was thinking alot alot alot. boring shit. i slept. tahah.

> something brought me down. and yah i was just suddenly affected and all. but after some thinking thru. yah, i pretty much got back on my feet once again. im becoming stronger i feel. theres more things for me to be happy about. alot more. we used to sms day and night. till our bills shot up to dont know where. and then in july, we smsed lesser and lesser and eventually, it stopped. im sad. i am. even when your bill was sky high, we still smsed like crazy. you know i really want to sms you so much. but i told myself that i wont. i really wish you'll start. but well. you said you have to save sms. and yah, we didn sms. for so long alr. since like last wednesday? if im not wrong. ohwells. i kinda miss you. but well. i know you wont sms me. ohwells. i shouldn tbe caring. i shouldnt be bothered but i just am affected. rmb we said that we can build things up again, we can try. indeed we are building up sth, a wall. i was wrong to have thought that theres a chance of revival. i led myself on. yah good friends huh. and yah, good friends then was smsing day and night, talking on the phone and stuff. good friends now is hello, byebye. sometimes im affected sometimes im not. why am i affected this time round? damn.

i musnt care anymore. friends we shall be. acquaintances or whatever platonic.

thinking of everything that had happened made me feel as if i should turn to you. but i dont mean it that way. you will be my good friend, always. thats it.

i never thought that i'll survive without you. "ill really die without you lah ):" thats what i always wanted to say back to you. but did i ever say that to you? i cant remember. i never thought that we will end up this way. i thought that i'll just die without you, without smsing you and stuff. but heyy, im getting on pretty alright. perhaps what elis said is true. "you have grown up" it hadn been easy. but definitely easier than i thought. im not going to feel bad anymore. whatever that had happened is enough to make up for the hurt that i caused. we are quits.

i thought of throwing away everything. deleting the smses, msn convs, tearing up the letter, throwing away that present, tearing up that book and going for a brain wash. but something held me back. it whispered "memories. they are for keep"

i wish you will talk to me. really.

-

sooooooooo lit was mad mad fun. much laughing and stuff. oh my, i was so duper happy i tell you. hahah (((: ian chang is a super idiot. what paper can kill you. my foot. haha. retarded thing. and sherm wrote this letter to nkf. super funny i tell you. i laughed like shit lah. haha

so after lit was fairsian connect. dricee was so childish. both of us were fighting again, with leaves. tahah. slept in the hall. and then i dreamt.

after school. yah. our darling corinne actually wrote "i loveS you" how great coringlish is huh. haha. to dover for lunch. someone special is damnnnnnnit pretty (:

so yah. slacked around. talked to yeeleen. shes super retarded. she deleted her spastic photo from me phone lah! haha, did some work. i got upset by some stuff. HMMPH. thank you kennedy for being there. leon also. yupp. so we played captains ball. quite fun. corinne fell on her ass. hah damn funny.

so then yah. was really quite upset. was on the phone and all. ahh damn.

bussed home with neo. yah. i was about to tear. when i relate him to you. that similarity. i cried. flashbacks ran thru my mind. i read thru the smses. and i cried like worse than a baby. i think neo got a shock. he was sitting in front of me. then he smsed me. i was crying like some dumb shit lah. listening to blind, reading those smses, thinking about the past. it finally brought tears. im doing the same thing everyday, but i didn cry for the last few days. but today. i cried, so much. and thats when i realised that, i have been suppressing my emotions. ahh damnit. sat downstairs and talked to nic on the phone. finally went home at around nine, looking like a goldfish.

my eyes were hell tired. crying with contacts sucks man. and yah. i was watching tv with gran in uncle's room. then i fell asleep straight. so yah. one of the really rare nights that i slept before ten.

FRIDAY
chem pract was first. i broke a test tube. the first ever in my whole life. haha and that freaking powder is dont know what man. so hard to clean off. tahah then my smart lab partner, yip yunxing broke a test tube also. then my dinosaur broke one. then either ian or sister goh broke another one. haha test tube breaking day! i drew a new watch again. haha missliang "u very poor isit? no money buy watch. children's day i buy you one" hahaha

so yah. i cleaned the floor and stuff. then lit was quite okay. elis didn come. so i sat with esmonde. i got pissed off with him. ohwells. so yah. bullshitted here and there.

ss was sucky. hah boring shit. but mund choo makes every ss lesson fun! haha.

recess was alright. we ate ALOT. haha. then it was math. 3/4 of the class was late. so all of us stood outside. it was darn hot. then went into class. had to stand behind and stuff. then yah bio was next. boring shit. i slept lah. then suddenly wenyao kicked my chair and woke me up then "huh what u want?" -me
"you know what time alr?"-yao
"4.50." -looks at my watch. HAHA
"2.15 alr"
"oh really. yay"
"you sleep almost the whole bio lesson lah. 45minutes. basket"
"he dont scold me wan what"
"yah i know, you forever also sleeping"

haha crazy tard. so yah. zhiyi came back to school today. that ass is leaving on sunday. NOOOOO ): after school. slacked around in the canteen. we ate, slept and did rubbish. hah aileen and i played some bench jumping game. we saw stingray. so we shouted then he started walking darn fast away. then i shouted"NIC RUN!" then stngray got shocked, looked at us and ran away. hah super funny. so yah. took some videos of nic and aileen fighting. it was super funny. haha changed, played monkey with johnson blah blah. then played captains ball. with the ncc seniors and bb boys. hah mad mad fun! (:

but had to leave very soon ): haha but it was fun. and the sec three ncc boys were dismissed so darn late lah. hah retarded man.

to dover for some quick bites. then bussed home with neo and shah. stupid jarold lim, im not black okay. you colour blind shit.

shouted I HATE NEO JUN WEI damn loudly in the parade sq before capt ball. and he posed "im a super model" hahah retarded man!

shouted i hate neo junwei again at the bus stop. then he was standing very far away from me. then suddenly he came over and gave the "NEO"S SMILE" haha damn funny. then he kept saying sorry. haha then that asscrack was damn funny. i didn want to forgive him. but he made me laugh a lot of times lah. idiotic shit. haha. he kept giving me the retarded smile. and he spoke in a german accent. haha damn funny. and i have two new videos of him in my phone. collection man. haha "i treat you supper?" haha that retard. we were talking thru shah.

"help me ask that asshole what time is his tuition" - me
blah blah
"did u hear"- shah
"nope i didnt"
"he has to be in school by 7 , until 9.30"
"9 you mean, and its am" -neo
"fine, 9am"
"hello, im here"
"oh sorry i didn know you were there"
"oh okay nvm nvm." flashes that retarded face and waves. HAHA

tahah. so yah. home now. chatting with 5 ppl in a conv was fun. haha retarded. i haven bathe. ohno i better go now. tahaha. going out with the perfect ten and joel tmr (: it will be fun. i hope, no i mean of course it will be!

and im the dumbest thing ever. prelims coming so soon. and i thought that we will still have a week of lesson before the rest of the papers commence. im so wrong damnit. ahh darn, im left with no time. i need time. damnit. i haven touch a single shit at all. im so dead. ohwells.

> you were so duper sweet just now. wells. im kinda messed up right now. hope things will be alright between us.

/ahh im contradicting myself again. now i wish i can have you back. yet again. ahh im such a piece of shit.

`neo and leon teh. thanks for being there for me

> DINO! thanks for all the phone calls, smses and all th shit. ahh ure such a damn good friend! haha idiot. thanks or always being there alright.

HELLO PRINCE CHARMIN'! (:
> youre super charming! haha

/if i had a choice, i wouldnt have let this happen-
if i can turn back time, i will make sure im much nicer
if i can have a second chance, i will love you with all i have
if you will love me again, i wont ever let you go
if we can be us again, i will cherish you for sure
if we give ourselves another try, i promise it will work out right

> so much for positive thoughts

rewrite my story ;
8/26/2006 01:05:00 PM