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Sunday, September 17, 2006

heyy im home

kinda happy today. went to meet 6/10 of the perfect ten (: yah met them at kap. i did one chapter of bio again. heh. yah so it was a pretty fun time. with alot of shifting places. eating honey glazed chicken in macs. hah

then yah. did our work and stuff. nic left at 6.45. then corinne aileen and i continued doing our stuff. then there was this guy who walked past me, he was like running. then his jacket messed up my hair lah! then when he walked back, i tried to trip him. hah damn funny.

there was this adult party going on in macs, kinda cool. hah. corinne left at eight. then neo and leon came over to sit with aileen and me. then aileen and neo were fighting like shit. damn funny. "what di shit. wheres my earpiece" hah neo is retarded. what di shit. then aileen asked "wheres my money" then neo replied "up your ass turn left" HAHA. damn crazy lah. they kept throwing paper balls at each other. "you should kill the birds in you hair, so that they wont lead you astray" HAHAHAHA thats super funny lah. omg. you must be there to see the whole fighting thing going on. "youre not rolling your eyes. youre diagonally pushing them. like that. arent you ashamed of yourself?" then aileen tore up neo's paper boats. and she threw them at neo. one of them hit me -_-" then neo used aileen's shirt to whack her face, and he whacked mine accidentally. THANKS AH NEO.

we made such a din lah. hah then yah went off after that. jem and leon walked aileen and i to our bus stops. then jem was walking aileen across the road when he suddenly "AHHH 61!" turned and ran "BYE!!!" haha so funny lah. then leon waited for me for my bus. then yeah. im home now.

so was thinking about some stuff on the way home. theres no point wishing that we are in this time period of anything. cause theres no way we can turn back time and change things. the past maybe so sweet and so wanted. you may regret having done this and that. but so? life still goes on. it doesn wait for you to get over your pain and hurt. we must move along with it, and make the future even better. cause nothing will be the same. theyre just gonna be better or worse. the decision lies with us. its how we wanna face the future and our problems. god wont give us more than what we can bear. we will be able to get thru any trial that he places in our life, no matter how hard it is, how much it takes and all. we will be able to get thru, becoming stronger. like silver, being refined in a fire. its so not easy to not think about the past and not wanting the sweet stuff back. the happiness and all compared to your sufferings now. they make you so wanna give up on your life. but heyy, i have been thru it. and im still going thru it. the past is oh so damnit sweet and nice. but so? whats the point of thinking back? true that memories are for keeps, true that its nice living in the past. but so? back to reality, memories are but just memories. they wont keep us going for life. we have to face our fears and overcome them. tough as it is, we are able to do it. we have so many more things in life for us to be happy about than to be sad about. its so sad losing some things that are so precious, but its just part and parcel of life. god wants us to meet a few wrong people before the right one, so that when we meet the right one, we will know how to treasure the person.

its true that i didn treasure you. and its far too late for any regrets. i have been thinking alot about the past and all. having so many regrets. but heyy, theres no point regretting. we can just learn from our mistakes and dont commit them again. these few days, i have been to places that brought back so much memories. and i didn go to those places purposely. coincidences, and memories never fail to flood my mind. especially at holland bk. it hasnt been very long. its only been a month since we broke up and its nice seeing you happy, having moved on and all. and yah, im moving on too. but at a much slower rate as compared to you. even phone calls with others, every lil thing that i do. memories just keep coming back to me. everything can be linked to you, and us. every single thing. and i dont know why its this way suddenly again. its making things hard for me. really hard.

but i believe, its just another test. and yah, i'll pull thru. pressure creates diamonds. i hope i'll be a diamond.

and to those going thru tough times now. i know many of you are. i hope you all get what im trying to get across. and i hope all of you will become diamonds also. or refined silver. you may be hating what youre going thru right now but its a promise that the future will be better. everything happens for a reason. and youre meant to be happy in a better future after overcoming the trials in your life. bad things keep on happening when youre down. you will feel so much like dying, like why the hell is this happening to me. why is life so unfair. blahblah. but heyy, they are just things meant to make us stronger and make us better people. so yah, stay positive. no matter what tomorrow brings, be strong and get thru it. everything will be better. thats a promise (:

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its scary how the person closest to you can be the most distant the very next moment. its scary how the person who claimed that he loved you can be the most heartless person the next moment. its scary how the person who was the nicest to you can be the coldest and most hostile the next second. its scary how the person who treated you like treasure can treat you like downright trash the next thing you know it. its scary how the person closest to you can be the one who dont understand you the most. its scary how the one whom you thought knew you can turn around and stab you. its scary how the one whom said youre so important can turn his back on you and leave you behind, all alone. its scary how the one whom said you mean so much can think of you in a totally different way. its scary how the sweetest to you can think that ure so evil. its scary how the person who said `i trust you, can disbelieve you but believe everything else others say. its scary how the sweet and nice one can say all those bad stuff about you. its scary to note the difference in the treatment, coming from the same person who meant so much.

its scary to know that youre like that now.

its scary how you thought you know the person but actually you never really did.

perhaps i never really knew you ;

mummy leong, i miss you. i know actually you cared for me more than anybody else did. and yah, you were the nicest, the sweetest, the best ever to me. but i neglected you. and now, we have drifted so much. but then, i have never ever stop loving you my best friend. never okay. i so want to catch up with you. i miss you, i really do.

rewrite my story ;
9/17/2006 10:43:00 PM