your messages, your words. they cut me so so so super deep. it hurt so freaking much. i cant believed that you said all those stuff to me. and doubting my friendship with the two of them. that really shocked me. so i am someone like that to you? a person who fake friendships to get close to another. it was so heartbreaking knowing thats what you feel about me. it was painful reading the smses.

thank god, those two know that im genuine. that i really love them and treasure them as best friends.

so you carried on saying alot of stuff. you had never send such long smses to me before. and yah, they were so super long and so freaking hurting. you blasted at me with so much untrue stuff. and i dont know if you believed me or not. but all i can say is, i told you the truth and nothing more. neither less. if you choose to believe the others, by all means, go ahead.

you didn hear both sides and you judged. did you ever consider how i would feel? you know how hurting it is to hear those words from someone you love? though its over, but. you dont treat me as if you ever did like me before.

was kinda pissed just now. not really though. just quite. but i understand. i understood that you dont know the whole situation thats why i explained. i tried to get my point, the truth across to you. its up to you if you wanna believe me or not. i cant force the truth into you. youre the one who holds the decision as to if you wanna believe me.

it was so hurting. so damn hurting. seeing those untrue stuff hurled at me, those hurting sentences and all. they just stabbed my heart. everything slapped me trillion of times as hard at where it hurt the most. but still, i want to let you know that i dont hate you.

all the stuff you said. you know they tore my heart into pieces? i have said the truth. and yah, its up to you now. and if you want to say more hurting stuff to me, just go ahead. let me bear it once and for all. dont let them stab me repeatedly.

this time, the hurt is far too deep. too deep. perhaps you dont even feel sorry for blasting all those untrue stuff at me. perhaps you dont even realise that those words hurt me. those false accusations, they made saltwater well up in my eyes.

and yah, you stood up for her. and do you not understand how i felt last time since you understand her plight? yea, i was sensitive. blahblah. i was jealous at times and all. and heyy. if youre standing up for her, then you should know what you put me thru last time right? i went thru just the same thing. you put me thru that. have you the slightest idea how i felt then? so you deem how i felt wrong, kinda unfair isnt it? you can feel for her, but not for me. ohwells. perhaps you will still think that i was wrong. that i shouldnt have felt that way and all. that what i did strained your friendship. and the list goes on. but well. its up to you.