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Friday, September 29, 2006

woah this sucks man seriously. my keyboard is freaking spoilt?!?! so means there are some letters that i cant type then i must use on screen keyboard to add them in later. super freaking IRRITATING! ugh!

damn damn this seriously is so damn sucky damittttt. i'll take hours to blog lah like that. ahh

today woke up at five ten. went to clementi. had breakfast at macs. hotcakes. was damn full lah. then bussed to school. heard bing and bong! so super funny! hah

then yeah so had a really long assembly. miss lim was telling us about the school's achievement and all blahblah. and our school has a lot of teahers lah! hmm so first period was physics so i had free period. went to the library. miss wong is so nice lah! i think shes quite nice what. why so many people say shes not nice? hah she helped me switch on the tv in the viewing room. then wahlao what titanic. so boring. so i just slept on the couch.

it was so cold lah. hah then 9 plus. we left the library. went to the skybridge for a while then after that had a talk in the hall. wa they asked about targets and all then i dont even know anything lah. i dont even know my l1r5 cause i didn go to shool yesterday. hah ohwell. then miss yeo came to talk to me. she asked me to be serious and to start studying. hmm yeah. then went to find miss mano to ask for my english results. then she was like "too bad i dont have anything with me now" woah hah shes damn nice man. then after that i went to find her again so she was like "you care about ur results? ure like one of the few who dont care. whole day talking to edmund" hah then anyway i got to know my results from the ppr. so totalled up my l1r5. i thought i would get like 30 points plus but i did much better than expected. its quite stupid. -_-"

then chye aik kept chasing me around and whacking me lah. and he asked choo to bully me somemore. then i kept pointing my fourth fingers at him. so stupid. hah. then he hit my head so many times lah. ASSHOLE. and he bullied me for nothing can. i DIDN EVEN DO ANYTHING! then he keep saying "ITS BECAUSE U DIDN DO ANYTHING THATS WHY I WANNA WHACK YOU" wahlao eh what did i do man. i didn even do any shit. asscrack. and he dragged me across the floor again. so freaking malu lah

haiya math was okay. nothing much. then was bio. so boring. anyway! mak wen yao! please cheer up! okay okay! hmm after shool just went to the canteen. then yeah slacked around. laughed and all. then aileen leon and i went to learn at fairfield to do work. so yeah it was so damn cold. i was like really frozen. then girlfriend came and lent me his jacket! (: thank you! your boyfriend loves you VERY MUCH okay! hah so yeah had alot of fun playing around and stuff. then nic and corinne came. then yah continued doing work and all. then after that aileen and i went downstairs to retrieve some ball thingy. then my girlfriend was so brave. he climbed over the gate and helped us to retrieve it. he fell somemore. thanks ah. sorry your boyfriend damn weak. HAHA. then aileen and i were chasing ken and jem around. so tiring. hah then went back to learnatfairfield then packed up and all. hah had alot of fun today! (: and yeah went for dinner after that. then now im home.

actually i have alot to say but this keyboard is seriously driving me nuts

oh then while i was running up the stairs today, some guy's waterbottle hit my hip. damn painful lah. hah then while running i saw miss yeo. damn freaking funny. then i was laughing like crap. hah. okay i like that say not funny lah.

OH OH! and ESMONDE TAN! congrats!!!!! (: heh that ass is the top in the level for emath lah! (:

hah and kengheng is damn cute!

oh and i saw miss mano after school. told her that i know my result alr. then she said "it is an incorrect representation. you should get lower" WOAH THANKS AH MISS MANO!! hahahaha

oh and i missed cell group )): david asked me during bio and i actually forgotten about it! man, so sorry.

hah i think i a bit the high. dont know why also

thought about alot of things today. felt kinda sad at some points in time and all then mr chan's words struck me hard.

what is the most important thing in your life now?

i know its my studies but i just cant settle down and study. there are so many other things on my mind always. so many other thoughts that keep on clogging my mind. seriously this sucks so damn hell bad. my studies have never been my priority. it never was important to me. but i know that it is important but i just haiya i dont know lah. so freaking contradicting.

i need to study. i have to study. i know its important. i better get down to it. i better learn how to shut out everything else and start studying. i better.

this morning reminded me of the times that we went to school together. then i was reminded of the times you bought gummies and chocs for me. the time you called me when you came back to school with my choc. but i was having remedial. then later on i was reminded of the dinners and all the times you waited with me for my bus. ohwell.

will they just leave me alone

/will you talk to me

> BLIND

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go
And I loved you more
Than you will ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go

its me whos meaning the lyrics this time round
but everything is too late, far too late.

im sorry, really so so super sorry.

i know its pointless saying that.
but i guess thats what i really feel like saying.
i so want a chance to make everything right.
but i know i wont have it.

so guess all i can do now is to leave it all behind.
and wish you all the very best.
and feel happy when i see you happy.

how contradicting ; so very contradicting

rewrite my story ;
9/29/2006 09:46:00 PM