T SO YOU KNOW ;JUS

Monday, July 31, 2006

im crying.
but well, at least i sort things out.
maybe we wouldnt have broken up if i came online just seconds earlier.
but i sent the sms before msn loaded.
and yah, saw his chatbox and yah i didn know what to say.
i shouldn have send the sms.
its too late for regrets.
most of what i wanted to tell you is in the 11 pg long sms.
i wish you all the best, from the bottom of my heart.

lets hope i'll be fine.
its gonna be so hard getting back on my feet

thank god i have great friends.
and neo, that includes you.

i made a choice that i never wanted to.
but guess its all for the better.
i know you'll be happy.

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7/31/2006 09:49:00 PM

Sunday, July 30, 2006

IM SO FREAKING HAPPY!!!!!!! ((((((((((((((((((((:
hmm but the person who made me so super happy today is not the one whom i have been mentioning in almost every post luh. haha

i smsed him, and he replied. so yah. and he apologised and stuff. i was DAMN SHOCKED. but DAMN HAPPY. i just kept smiling to myself. like a moron (:

met chye aik in town. walked around. i cant stop telling him how freaking happy i am. HAHA. then i hurriedly called nic and told her! I WAS DAMNIT HAPPY I TELL YOU.

I TOTALLY LOVE PVP MAN.
though my body's aching like crap. and i had real bad cramps.
BUT, it brought about this.
OHMYGOSH.
im super happy lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

two years since we really talked. and today, everything sorta change. ohmy oh my. im happy, i am.

so yah. walked around. chye and i caught LADY IN THE WATER. it was like quite boring at first. but heyy, its nottt bad you know.

two years ago, i watched the village, a production by the same director with the person who made me so happy today. and damn, that day was hell nice. although the movie sucked. and today, i watched this production by this same director, and heyy im so damn happy. and its him again. just that this time, the film is much better. tahah. OH MY OH MY. im happy.

THANK YOU DINO. THE DAY WAS FUN! (:
and you know me so well uhhh. IDIOT. haha

bought a nice belt and necklace, and candies (:

> maybe i can let you go more easily now.

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7/30/2006 10:08:00 PM

just why
just how
i just dont understand

a day and everything changed.
its been 25 days since then.
things have been getting worse as each day passes.
and now, whats left of ur feelings for me is just abit.
it hurts so damn freaking bad when u answered that.
i bawled like a baby, i did.
then when i asked you are we over.
u said its up to me.
i really dont know what you want
i really dont know how things became like that.
i have tonnes of unanswered questions in me.
they are bursting to be answered.
i need those answers.
i need them badly.

called nic last night.
sorry girl, to trouble you.
i cried over the phone like some dumb ass.
and yah, i kept crying as i read thru his smses,
darn, they were hell sweet.

your love did fade fast, and it makes me wonder if you ever did truly love me.
i guess you will say yes.
cause i think that you did.
but things just change, all of a sudden.
why so?
i have no idea.
i dont want all this to be happening.
i want the past back.

you dont sms.
you dont call.
you dont ask me out anymore.
and is that doing ur part of trying to get the feelings back?
things are just deterioting.
i dont want it to end.
i really dont want.
but i dont know what to do.
perhaps an end is the best for both you and i.
but i cant bear to let it go.
i cant.

i need to clear all my doubts.
i need to know what exactly you want.
before i say if we are over.
but i want you to know that
i never wanted us to be over.
i never did.
and never will.

my life's a wreck now.
pretending to be happy when im not is just getting harder.
the concealment is failing.
my heart's defying orders to stop loving you.
everythings' crashing, burning.
so which way am i heading.
so whats my choice?
i dont know.
oh gosh, im so totally wrecked.

being in the state that im in,
i still console ppl.
i still try to help them.
its hard, its not easy.
but at least they do get me off my own thoughts for a little while.
im more than happy to be able to help.
but now the person i need to help the most
is myself.

from alot to abit, over twenty five days.
how wonderful is that.

i just feel like dying.
i just want to escape from all these.
but i know its no point doing that.
i have to face it, solve it.
if it ends, we will still be friends.
it will be awkward perhaps.
maybe we are better off that way.
maybe we shouldnt have even started at all.
maybe we should have just stayed as liking each other.

just whats wrong with you?
and us?
you have changed.
you have.

you seem to be having the heck care attitude now.
the insecurity is killing me.

im so dashed.
its just two more days.
just two.
two.

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7/30/2006 11:26:00 AM

Saturday, July 29, 2006

im so down now. and im trying very hard not to cry. i dont want to break my promise to you.

FRIDAY
had chem prac. and it was pretty alright. lit was next. christine signed out. so did elis. helped elis get the form and stuff. then yah saw jaclyn in the canteen. and she told me some stuff, i was shocked but i was quite happy.

so sat with joash. discussed about stuff and all. they kept singing our class song which is HAPPY BIRTHDAY. dric kept on screaming. that mad ass. people started shouting that they want to sign out also.

ugh, i have no mood to blog.

went up for ss. had a test. then had recess. then went up to math class. i sprayed water from the 4th floor to the first. and it hit colin. his reaction was ultra funny.

one period of math lesson. all for jeremy tan zhi yi. dricee drew a super big muffin, which he claimed is a cake on the whiteboard. rubber band performed a song composed by choo just for zhiyi. people gave testimonials. and we took class photos.

bio was next. sat with wenyao. had a great time chatting with him and stuff.

after school. went to the canteen to find the girls. had lunch. and then i went home. then i went back to school after grabbing my stuff. watched the people march and stuff. then i showered. and i was pissed off with somebody.

bussed to zhiyi's house. i was dam pissed off with the freaking uncle. ohwells. met lissa they all. then went to zhiyi's house in the rain. so yah. nice and all. dinner was great. the food was nice. photos and all. mahjong, piano. guitar, performance by rubber band. the class singing songs tgt in a room. damn, it was sweet. miss hia played the piano. SO "CUTE" uhh. yah i learnt a bit of piano also.

jiayi was funny. went home at around 11.

SATURDAY
woke up early in the morning. bussed to school. met miss lee at clementi. had briefing and stuff. played our matches and all. it was a tough journey to the finals. finals with the reds was mad fun. prize presentation and stuff. had really bad cramps. started with my toe. then my right calf. then during the finals, my left calf. i was carried out. thanks ah mel, im not light okay. thank you wenyao for pushing my leg or whatever. thanks alot. and thanks to my team, for saying that i played really well. saying that i intercepted like mad and all. i mean, its like if not for you all then i wont be able to play like that. cause u guys are far better than i am. and i really think that we played really well together. you guys are simply too good.

and i think i was quite rough against senior shuting. i apologise. it was an accident. i was just snatching the ball. sorry anyway.

take care junlong.

christina, jaclyn, xinyi, melissa, jonathan, marcus, arvin, wenyao, ian and i - UNDERGRADUATES.

so we are the champions. the present dominated captains ball.

supposed to be with the girls in town right now. but i didn feel like going. im down, i really am.

> and to you, im sorry i cried. it wasn within my control.

i cried a whole load today.

we played together today. we talked. we passed the ball to each other. it wasnt weird. i was feeling weird though. i kinda miss you once again.

neo, see. things are better now. im happy for you.
and i know that someone is jealous cause i talked to neo today. i saw her staring.

/i can tell that it doesn even affect you a single bit. and that hurts real bad.

its just three more days, to first august.
i really hope we can be back to the past.
but i know, we wil never be.

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7/29/2006 07:47:00 PM

the day was awesome.
one of the best days i ever had in my life.
despite all that had been crashing in my head,
my day was no lesser than perfect.

I SWEAR I LOVE FOURDEE.
u should have seen the unity in us.
a bond that no one else shares.
cause its us, fourdee zero six.

today's was zhiyi's last day in school with us.
the farewell dinner was fantastic.
great food, great fun.
great company, great bonding.

zhiyi, im gonna miss you, so damn much
this post's gonna be short.
elaborated one tmr.
im gonna sleep now.

past vs present tmr.
go undergraduates.

we must
we can
we will

> i was shocked when i heard that they talked to you. but i was elated by what they told me. however, the happiness was short-lived. cause the truth is, you dont give a damn. so well, why should i. i have been a fool in this game for two. and now, we have gone our separate ways. its never been so bad before. never had we not talk for more than a day. never. but it is a fact now that we hadn been in contact for more than twenty four hours. this shows me that u dont want us. no matter what you say, its the actions that count in the end. do whatever you want. cause im wishing you all the very best. to those girls out there, i have done my part by giving up. all the best to you all.

at least i dont feel so guilty now. thats the positive side of it.

neo, i know i have been telling you to be positive. i know its hard. im in a situation as bad as yours, but heyy. if i can be positive, you can be also. promise me you'll be okay. cause everything will be fine, youre gonna be alright. no matter how long or whatever it takes, you are gonna be happy. promise.

> you mean alot to me. its never easy to let it go just like that. all that we had, they mean too much to be forgotten.

ohwells, cant believe this is happening. although he didn approve of it, but his actions. they tell me sth else. since he left it this way, then well i chose to take hold of the situation and not let myself hang there, struggling in mid air. perhaps im selfish. perhaps.

i wish we can salvage it. but i guess, all's too late.

its just four more days. just four days.

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7/29/2006 12:27:00 AM

Thursday, July 27, 2006

ure not even affected at all.
since you left it this way, so be it then.
you didn say no or anything.
so well, i'l take it as a yes.
and so this marks the end.

its just five more days.
but we didn make it till then.
its saddening.
it is.
perhaps things will be better this way.

i never wanted things to be like that.
never.
but things have come to a stage whereby i feel that its best to end it all.
it will be hard to let go and all.
but i will try.

guess you will be happier.
so take care.
youre a beautiful part of my memory.
forever.
goodbye.

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7/27/2006 11:10:00 PM

back home here i am.
alright, haha feeling kinda weird. ohwells

hmm so the usual stuff. to school and everything. dricee was collecting money or rather asking for donations. that poor fruit broke a boiling tube and gues what. they want him to pay FIVE BUCKS. for a damn boiling tube -_-" so many donated. and dricee had a HANDFUL of coins. i donated like eighty cents. haha

so assembly was hmm alright. seriously i tell you PENGUIN SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS MAN. she really sucks to the core lah. UGH. shes so damn freaking SUCKY lah. shes turning fairfield into a MILITARY PENGUIN SCHOOL. argh, freak her big time. every morning pms pms pms and shout into the freaing microphone. whole day got that damn freaking sucky black face. ahh that fat round ball. shit her man.

so english was first up. nothing much. just some stoning and stuff. thanks to kook, grace, helsa and mund for helping me. miss mano asked me questions when i was stoning then luckily they helped me. THANKS GUYS (:

chinese was next. THREE FREE PERIODS. haha sang birthday song to aaron WHEN HE WASNT IN CLASS. so dumb. haha so we ate, we chatted, we this and that. i listened to clarence's ipod and i slept. and i tell u, the freaking teacher is damnit bias. jiayi ian dricee joash they all right all listening to ipod. then right, she freaking walked over to me and asked me to remove my ear piece. then i WHAT, and i stared at her with big big eyes. its damnit what lah. wahlao eh. she didn even ask them to remove la. she still go and chat with them. WHAT IS THIS MAN. rah

recess was fine. i didn have any appetite. made a decision that i never wanted to. but i will try to not regret. elis forced me to eat sth, so i bought, a mouthful and i gave it to nicolette.

ss was next. nothing much. told mund choo about lotsa things that i never tell him ): mund choo, im sorry okay. and i told him my decision.

lit was next. PETER ATE PAPER. then we were like "WHAT!" then i laughed like mad. then he said "I DIDN EAT IT. I CHEW ON IT AND I SPAT IT OUT" thats how he treats hia's worksheets! HAHA damn freaking funny lah. then he kept eating paper. and THAT DAMN FREAKING HIA IS A DAMNIT FREAKING BITCHHHHHH. she freaking confiscated my phone. and she was freaking unfair lah i tell you. wahlao last time she gave back jiayi's ipod and chye's phone lah. then she didn want to give it to me. then she go take my phone then she saw that i was smsing kong then she went "IM GONNA TELL MISS YEO AND GET HIM INTO TROUBLE" WTH, DAMN BITCH RIGHT.

AND I TELL YOU. I LOVE FOURDEE SO FREAKING MUCH ALRIGHT. SO DAMN FREAKING MUCH. they were all like fighting for me, asking miss hia to not take my phone. i really was touched, serious. thanks guys.

VEN` really thank you so much. you stood up for me the most. shouting out loudly and everything. heyy, really man. thanks. and even after she took my phone, u still said "I WANT U TO GIVE HER BACK HER PHONE NOW" ohman, thats really super nice of you lah! and all those "U GO FIGHT WITH HER, STRIKE A DEAL WITH HER" thanks for telling me what to do and stuff and thanks for cheering me up! THANKS! (:

MEL` thanks for even trying to fight against her for me after the lesson. thanks (:

JIAYI` heyy! thanks for the tissue man (:

FOURDEE` OHMAN, I LOVE YOU ALL (: SERIOUS, FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

so yah. fourdee sang many birthday songs for aaron tan jie rong!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON TAN!! (:

CONDUCTOR CEDRIC GOH LED THE CLASS TO SINGING THE SONG IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS. HAHAH. he start with "HAP" then will have other idiots "PY" "BIRTH" "DAY" in different tones and pitch. i swear, its hilarious. cedric goh is just one mad mad ass.

we sang many many times. during class contact also. dric led the class to sing the song again! haha this time he sang until damn funny lah. hes like screaming and like going out of tune. HAHA damn damn funny lah him. then

so we painted flags and everything. chatted with many ppl and stuff. people asked about the phone thing and stuff. thank you fourdee (: so yah. chatted with es and kengheng. haha laughed about stuff and everything lah. haha colin seow is a damn big idiot. but hes damn funny.

tahah. after school. went down with aileen. then went to talk to miss hia again. she pissed the hell out of me again. hmm ate the noodles that corinne brought.

then chatted with corinne about stuff. hm then went to tzone. ate and played cards. then after that went to play captains ball. first with aileen's friends. then after that with the guys. so nic, cor, jarold, kenneth, wenhui, kiefer, and neoooo (: pretty fun! haha (:

the stupid kiefer kicked my leg. damn painful lah. ):

oh, and i got back my phone. went to find miss ng, she was in a good mood. so yah. i signed this white form, and i got two demerits. so miss ng said that i can get my phone back tmr. but i asked mummy to call and i get my phone back today. miss ng is nice today. haha (:

then left school. was waiting for 198, then neo came. so we bussed home together. ytd night, i talked to neo, SERIOUS MATTER. and its the first time im doing so. and im really glad that hes so honest with me. haha so yah. chatted with him about serious stuff on the bus also. yah. so i know pretty alot now. well, NEO u learn fast so yah. bear what i said in mind okay? love! (:

so yah. im on the phone with kennedy now. tahah. stupid joel ): stop spouting nonsense. haha.

theres zhiyi's farewell dinner tmr. ): i dont want him to leave.

theres history test tmr ): im gonna fail. i wanted to study but i seriously dont have the mood to. ohwells.

/so this is the end, of you and me.
i never wanted things to be like that.

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7/27/2006 09:40:00 PM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

im quite sad now.
but i promised her that i will not cry. and i wont.

today was a pretty fine day. so penguin talked sooo super much in the mornin, and i fell asleep. im really tired. really. so chinese was up first. nothing much. then amath. what a bore. hmm bio was next. pretty interesting. hmm shit. what did i learn. cant remember. but i know i asked mr chan sth suddenly. "DO FISH DRINK WATER?" and he said "yes, should be, i go check it out. i get back to you" then after that i felt a bit stupid. then wenyao asked me to ask if fish drown. i didn want to but in the end, abruptly, i shouted again "MR CHAN, DO FISH DROWN?" and he said "YES" seriously, i couldn believe it, but he said sth about their air bladder getting infected and stuff. SO HMM.

recess was fine. i ate pretty alot. and my stomach was burning again, as usual. cause of spice trail. hmm yah.

after recess was chinese. did nth. ate my choc bar. so elis was a happy happy girl today. i was actually a lil pissed with her during math, cause she did sth dam hurting, not to me though. then i was like what the hell, cause i totally understand how that person will feel. then i was quite unhappy with her. then after that, everything was okay. we wont be unhappy with each other for long. so yah, im happy for her yah.

so i was just listening to ipod, and then i was sleeping. then i went to the toilet. then met menglinn, so we chatted. then yah for quite sometime. then after that, saw corinne on the second level. then yah its like their whole class was outside the room lah. so funny. hmm yah, so i went back into class quite sometime later. then yah. lesson ended and evrything. went to english class. i was damn pissed off when miss mano asked me to sit infront. then i was like, i attituded her a lil. im sorry about that. hmm, so did my compo test. finished it in an hour. went to the toilet, saw aaron, and he grinned at me and pointed his middle finger then i got what he meant. relax dude (: then went back to class and i slept.

then mund choo woke me up. my poor best friend. the school's being freaking unfair to him. ugh how can they do this to mund choo lah. seriously, the school is getting sucky. hmm mund choo, i love you okay! (:

after school. ate fried rice. then yah. went to learn at fairfield to find monkey. looking at how hard joshua helsa and jane study is freaking me out. theyre crazy, mad mad crazy.

then went down to watch the juniors' match against bpgh. we won so yahh (: played guitar. after such a long time. my fingers are damn sore right now. but well, who cares. then played around with monkey and christina. yah. and i got another wound on my knee ): then yah. the cdiv played with their cdiv. AND UGH, SHE FELL DOWN LAH. damn the person who made her fall.

hmm then we were playin with a mop and corinne's ankle guard. pretty funny. so the cdiv won i guess. then lin xinyi and i went a bit mad. haha. hmm yah. then lin and i played a bit of netball. then we went to wait for jaclyn. then yah. after that everyone went home. took bus with neo jem and leon they all. then neo made me laugh like shit, and the journey was only ONE stop for me lah! haha stupiddd neoooo. im happy when i see him! hahaa "SUCKER!!!" "ho, shit."- covers his face with his file, and walks away.

yet another one. rahh, i dont want any of these to happen again. just leave me alone. please. i beg you all.

to this person. youre attached. so u should know better than to sms so many girls. how do u think ur girlfriend will feel? have you even consider her feelings before? you never ever did. all those "i dont want them to like me." well. then dont sms them. dont give them false hope. ure making ur girlfriend upset over selfish reasons. she has to wait for ur freaking sms for so long. and last time u used to reply her so fast. how long has it been from then? not too long. not a month. its damn dumb. but well. if u want things to be this way. so be it then. cause u may just lose her anytime also. ure not the only one after her. or maybe, u dont even want her anymore. ohwells. shes gonna be happy. she will be a happy girl.

> PLEASE PLEASE CHEER UP! (:

/jaclyn dear, please cheer up okay? (: love

ohyes, and i called kengheng after school (: hes fine. hes coming back tmr! (:

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7/26/2006 08:29:00 PM

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

im back home, early right? haha

i shall start bloggin about sunday

SUNDAY
hmm had tuition in the morning. learnt about ermmm, let me recall. AH, vectors. super boring. well, math never interests me anyway. so yah, then rushed about and went to town to meet nic corinne and aileen (: the day wasnt too good to start with. wasn feeling well exactly, emotionally. hmm so yah, so shopped around. did shopping the whole day. my darlings made me smile and stuff, and i brightened up. thank you honeys. so yah. i got two zara tops, a mango top and a ripcurl bag (: fruitful aye. the rest all got sth also, except for aileen. gonna go shopping this weekend again, i want that pair of shoes, that topshop shirt anddd and i duno? anything i fancy (: haha

so ate dinner at scotts. and had yami peach yogurt with nuts. i never ever ate yogurt in my whole life, but his is the second time (: and i love nuts. haha

so more shopping to come. then to macs. then yah. aileen had these two helium balloons with her. we wrote our names on one and we let it go. pretty sweet thing to do aye, in the middle of town. well, i love them, so duper much.

cant remember much also, guess my memory's failing me.

MONDAY
ohyes, my bro sleepwalked around midnight. i was so damnit scared. i didn know what to do man. so scary lah. and he was saying some rubbish. that time jaclyn stayed over, she sleeptalked also. that time nic also. haha but theirs were alright. my brother sleepwalked. wahlao, i was like really scared. tahah

so math was first, boring is the word to describe EVERY math lesson. so then had PE. well, wasnt really looking forward to it. but played touch rugby again. ELIS, LISSA, YUNXING, JAC, MEL, EVAN and me (: against kookie gang. we won 7-0. say we are good (: HAHA kidding. btu it was sure fun and a great workout. i sure need to lose some fats.

so yah, then after learnt some scissors movement thingy. haha damn funny lah. we practised it then mel did something super stupid. HAHA

yah so after everything then we were like clapping for each other saying good game fourdee and all. i love fourdee, i do. the unity we share aint easy to achieve. but we have it now, and i never want it to fade away. never.

recess was alright. mel was staring at these sec ones guys. cause they ate up our space at the table. haha. hmm yah so after that was ss. mel evan yunxing jacq and i were late, for hmm 13 minutes? alright, so sorry about that. but then that freaking beaver made us STAND, for a freaking hour. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE MAKE ME STAND. I HATE TO STAND. rahh. so then mel realised that she lost her retainers, then she as describing it to me. then i realise that I THREW IT AWAY. 400plus bucks thingy in a clear plastic bag, in a cup with ice and ribena in a rubbish bag. AHHHH, i decided to be kind today and clear the dirty table, and i ended up throwing her retainers away. so much for being a good kid ):

so then after ss, we explained to beaver why we were late. well, i pretty much like my excuse. or our excuse. we were trying to stop a fight by giving eye power. (: HAHA. the freaking dunno who go bully a sec one boy lah. so idiotic, only bully those smaller and younger than them. bunch of WIMPS. suckerrrs.

then i rushed up to math class and left my things there. then i ran to the canteen and try to find the retainers. so mel evan and i ended up searching rubbish bags, picking out every plastic bag. ugh, damn it was sucky. but hey, i found the retainers (: THANK GOD. if not i will be guilty for life. and then mel soaped it and wore it backkk. AHHH, SORRY MEL ): i promised i wont be a good kid and clear tables anymoree.

so math was a boreee again. had acjc talk in the hall afterward. and i have pretty much decided that im going there. (: haha but i dont know what course to take man. haha and i saw huizhen!! (:

then after that, went to dover with jacq and lissa. then jacq was saying "since when she got do homework, and since when she nv do homework but dont do well" EHH HEYY, im doing so badly now lah. last yr was a total fluke lah.

got a packet of fried rice and rushed back to school cause its my turn to bring food for the girls today. so then ate some and rushed off to do my incompleted work in beaver's classroon. damn, hes an unreasonable BASTARD. ugh, i hate him. then went to watch the juniors train. the brazilian coach brought her daughter along. i dont like her. that arrogant sucker. yucks.

then after that, was chatting with my pet dino at the area outside the bandroom, along the corridor. so yah, we talked about pretty much everything. HAHA AND HIS EXLINK CARD!!!! OMG, its damn freaking funny! HAHAHHAHA

so yah, thanks for everything dinoooo. for sharing with me and stuff. nv thought that we will be such good friends! haha owner loves you! (:

yah. so then after that, waited for the juniors training to end. then we played captains ball. played land and sea before that. haha so captains ball was alright. nic, aileen, corinne, jarold, neo, jem, kenneth, terrance and nicholas. not exactly very fun but it was nottt badd.
neo was as usual, funny! haha. nic and jem collided into each other, it was hilarious. haha.

then left for home. i was dead tired.

TUESDAY
chapel was first up. i like larissa lam. a quite pretty lady with a nice voice. her songs are nice! i dont mind having her album. haha. yah, SO I DIDN SLEEP DURING CHAPEL TODAY.

amath was next. i swear i know no shit about relative velocity, im gonna die so bad. every lesson was just chatting, drawing and sleeping. stoning rotting all those shit. and smsing of course.

"FRUIT"
"FRUIT"
"DRIC"
cedric turns around.
and i quickly shouted "FRUIT DRIC!"
hahaha

AND I TELL U ALL SOMETHING. hahahah the biggest miracle that ever happened to me happened today. I GOT 27/30 for emath test. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA damn joke lah. i was so stunned! HAHAHA i think i nv pass 20 ever before in these two years? and i nv even pass 3 in this year lah! HAHA so miss yeo came to me and said "u did well for this test, u should keep it up" and i said "yah i know, best ever in two years" and she replied "u still dare to say" haha idiot man.

hmm, rmb the colour of the lines! haha

"dricee why u never carry the dc bag alr? the spaceship that one?"-me
"i carry whatever bag u all also say"-dric
"no lah, this bag nice what!"
"cause i made it nice"
"oh yuck, please lor. is the bag make u look nice lah."
blah blah
"i curse that my grandfather die"-colin
"WHAT"
"you deserve to die man"
"no lah, actually i love my grandfather"
"i curse all the bitches"
"HUH WHY. what they do to you?"
"eh, why u curse my dog?
"HUH! PATCHY IS A GIRL?"
"yahlah then what?"
"huh! serious? i didnt know lah!"
"how old is patchy?"
"twenty"
"months? cannot be what! i saw her when i was sec one!"
"twenty years"
"yah yah"
"twenty millenium"

HAHAH THATS FRUIT! he said "im a jellybean" cause he wanted to eat jellybean. he said "im a rice cracker" cause he wanted to eat rice cracker. HAHAH

alright. so english was super slack. and miss mano sort of laughed at me. ugh, i shant say why.

then recess. i nearly cried cause i ate the green chilli seed or sth. haha. hmm recess was stupid. my dino made me fall down. haha so stupid. then he pulled me up by my thumb. OUCH. haha. so then bio pract was next. nth much also. i slept in this damn weird position, and i woke up with a sore neck and the worksheet stuck onto my chin.

then ben liew splashed water on me. that suckerrr. hahaha then chem. I TELL YOU. it was super funny man. sat with chyeaik and elis. with dric, colin and choo in front of us. HAHAHAH it was hell funny.

"colin, whats the two types of polymerisation?" -miss liang
"HMM, addition and err SUBTRACTION?"

"dric, CAN U BE MORE PATIENT?"
"u shhhhhhuu" -incomplete sentence

"rice cracker!"
"eh, colin, she calling you"
"jelly bean!
"eh choo, she calling you"
"small boy, fruit, human" -chye aik
"jeffrey, he calling you."
"dric, shut up lah!" -ian
"yah lah, choo, can u stop acting like me not?"

"they accuse me."
"now im going to accuse you of talking"
"alright, im guilty"

"colin seow, the next place u go is the dustbin"
"oh colin! u get to go home"
"can i stay beside you? i want to be ur neighbour"

HAHA

then i had correction tape stuck on my eyelid. i duno why also! damn stupid. then they kept laughing at me. then dric said "nice eyeshadow" then i HUH? then i realised that i had correction tape stuck on my eyelid. damn funny lah. we laughed like shit. then miss liang was like "whats happening? why is someone crying?" then i "IM NOT CRYING!!" then she tried to help me get it off. haha. then dric was like "SORRY DONT CRY. IM SORRY. DONT CRY" and he laughed and laughed. stupid fruit!

"colin seow, move now"
"NOOOOOOOO! miss liang! NOOOOOOO!" begins pulling his hair
"move now"
"miss liang, please noooooooo!"
"move"
"miss liang, dont do this to me."
"u did this to me for the last half an hour, move now"
"miss liang, no, please forgive me"
"i forgave u just now, no more"
"let me tell you a story"
"i have a story to tell you also"
"there was a man.." stands up
"and .... seventy seven times" -haha i didn hear this part.

HAHAHA DAMN FUNNY I TELL YOU. i laughed like mad.

"HEYY HUMPSTER"
"huh? whats humpster?"
"shes a hamster"
"HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH" -laughs like a really insane person
"how are you, HUMPSTER"
"WHAT ARE U DOING, HUMPSTER"

hmm then after chem was amath again. i failed my amath test. not surprising. haha, BUT I DIDN GET THREE (: dric was filling my bottle, and he was super wet. i was like shocked then i asked him "u just went for a shower ah?" "NO LAH, INSIDE RAINING" HAHAHA. so yah. then after that. took some videos of fruit. super funny lah that ass.

then went to find the girls in the canteen. pizza for lunch. then nic went crazy with my bottle. and we had water fights. ugh, i was damn wet lah. haha then nic and i were both damn wet. haha then we decided to make julia and corinne wet too! haha then after that. we went to dover for ice cream. then nic cor and i went to telok blangah to cut hair. AHHH not nice. haha. ohwells, its alright. hair will grow. haha

i have a question to ask. if ur boyfriend is smsing like seven girls? what will you do?
tahah just a random question.

NICOLETTE SUM! i loveee you okay. you know corinne and i will ALWAYS be there for you. i love you darling!!

CORINNE! i loveee you too! and i know ure one happy lady now. so yah, stay happy honey (:

> yah, we must all be happy! rmb what we wrote on the balloon? (:

THANK YOUUU! for the hula and co earring! so much! LOVE YOU!! (: hahaha.
theyre from HER! (:

AND YAY! enshao finished his presentation! congrats HIPPO! (:

/and please, twit. get away. not even in consideration.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACLYN NGGGG, MY EX HUSBANDDD! (: i love you okay! bestfriend!

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7/25/2006 07:58:00 PM

Monday, July 24, 2006

alrighttt. so im really lazy to blog. as in im damn damn damn tired lah. so i will blog tmr night or sth. tahah. and i realise that its been a long time since i last uploaded pictures. haha

anw, shopping yesterday was wonderful. two zara tops, one mango top and a ripcurl bag. love me (:

will update tmr night, hopefully. so STAY TUNE. haha nah just kidding.

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY WESLEYYYY! (:

/if i can, why cant you.
perhaps ure just a freaking liar.

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7/24/2006 11:10:00 PM

Sunday, July 23, 2006

im DAMNIT TIRED
but im not sleeping cause of some retard. though i promise another tard that i will sleep once i get home.

so hmm, im really bombarded by alot of "things" now.

so today. woke up early in the morning. got ready and stuff. rushed out to meet nic. haha and i tell u. im seriously gonna die of radiation. i sms like close to 250 smses a day. im gonna die die die. then that bloody clement choy right, hes damn asshole lah. he backed out of today three times. and the last time right, he really insisted that hes not coming. haha then i act angry. then that idiot called me and we talked for 17 minutes plus. haha so yah. i nearly got him to come but wells. haha

hmm so met nic. off to topshop. she got her top. shaun wai called me and told me that he saw me at wisma. and then he wanted to give me free tix to pirates at four at plaza sing. haha. i didn take luh. and then,we bussed to cathay to meet joel, jarold, leon, neo and shuwee. yah. so met up. got tickets. to plaza sing for subway. then back to cathay for PIRATES at 2.05pm. corinne and julia joined us for the movie.

so the pirates was, FUNNY! i sat with neo and nic. POPCORN FIGHTS (: haha and stupid jarold lim, u threw the freaking wrapper at me isit? sucker.

so nic and i were fighting. haha dunno for what also. and yah, i did enjoy the show. not that fantastic but well, the company was great. i nearly fell asleep during the show though.

haha and LEON AND JAROLD went to the toilet together. TSK TSK. haha let me tell you the background information. leon and jarold used to be a couple. neo and joel used to be a couple. then after that, neo broke up with joel for jarold. and leon decided to go with joel. and the four of them just share a complicated SQUARE relationship. and joel was OBVIOUSLY UPSET when jarold and leon went to the toilet together. he must be wondering what his wife is doing with his ex in the toilet. HAHAHAHAH

hmm and those tards kept making fun of me lah. xmen xmen. go die lah idiots.

hmm yah. so after the movie. corinne and julia left. then we took bus to orchard. to heeren for neoprints. gonna scan and will upload them soon. then yah i had to leave for kengheng's house. so yupp, i left.

bussed to school. then waited for thirty three. i waited for 30minutes or so and i was wondering if all the thirty threes went on a strike. freak man. then finally i boarded the bus then i took 189 from kent ridge to kengheng's house. then he came out to fetch me. haha so kengheng's house is nice! four storeys for four people. haha! so yah. i played cards and stuff. i was king right from the start for three consecutive rounds! haha and jiayi said that NATALIE IS PRETTY (: so yah, ate and stuff. the drink was a mixture of mountain dew, fruit punch, bandong and orange juice. HAHA. and the stupid cedric goh faked me lah. wahlao, what push push push the tap. is turn lah. sucker.

then yah. so after that. we realised that the adhesives on the wall cant be taken out. so most of us got to work, trying to get all out. so i suggested using ice. and it helped. and then i suggested detergent. and yay, it helped the most. so yay! im smart.

so yah, we rubbed rubbed rubbed. and tried to get everything out. and i tell you, kengheng's parents are DAMN FREAKING NICE LAH. so yah. celebrated tiffany's birthday. the cake was nice. bananafudgecake from secret recipe. niceee. hmm. so then some continued removing the adhesives. then some played ps and some played cards. cheryl was like "wahlao, my cards suck man. suck to the core, to the dunno what to the ends of the earth." then jonathan was like "woah, really suck man" haha. then i was smsing then dric was like "eh, finish alr?" then i "yah, u see lor" then he "make sure one dot also dont have ah" haha we rubbed till some parts of the wall damn freaking smooth lah.

"dric, i help u clean"
"what u want"
"i help u clean nah."
"dont deprive me of my playtime"

haha TARDDD.

so many started to leave. then yah. i didn leave. stayed behind. played cards with aileen and mel. aileen was playing with that kinda jingle bell balls. then she threw one, it landed on my shoulder, prak. and it broke into many pieces. i didn even felt it hit me. i just heard the prak, scare me man. so hmm chatted and stuff. then called tiffany and wished her happy birthday. dricee was like "HELLO, DO U KNOW WHO I AM, HAPPY BIRTHDAY" then we "WAHLAO, UR VOICE STILL CAN BE WHO?!" then he kept saying hes kengheng and then "YOU WANT TO TALK TO CEDRIC? WAIT AH" then he "hello, yes? HAPPY BIRTHDAY." "just now that one was kengheng, he imitate me, damn good right" HAHAHAH CEDRIC GOH IS MAD LAH.then i played fifa with wenyao. its my first time playing haha and i won wenyao 6-5 (: HAHAHAH. then went to see stars with kengheng. there was only one bright star. idiotic man. and we saw bats. haha

and kengheng took picture with me today! (:
and i said bye to him and he said byebye back.

CEDRIC. IAN. JONATHAN. ALEX. KENNETH. KENGHENG. KONG. NIC NGO. JOSHUA TOH. DAVID CHOO. WENYAO. JIAYI. NORMAN. CHERYL. MEL. TIFF. AILEEN. KIM (:

hmm then mummy came to fetch me home. so yah, kengheng walked me out. then after that. went to eat cheese prata. mummy told me that she whacked joel ytd. and i was shocked. haha mummy has never ever hit me in my entire life lah.

then yah im back home now.

im getting confused.
and seriously, this people, just get losttttt. and dont ever bother me.

/i promised you i wont cry, so i wont.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY! (:

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7/23/2006 03:23:00 AM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

hello! its been a longgg time since i last blogged. and im really sorry about it! haha so i wil begin!

TUESDAY
anyway. my bubble tea has no pearl. im not happy.

haha okay. so tues was a pretty alright day. chapel was up first. sat with joash and elis. then we clapped super loudly. miss yeo was leading, ian was playing guit and zhiyi the drums. so chapel was like so dead. then the few of us started clapping damn loudly, then ppl started following, then everything became better! haha. then i fell asleep. then sang the school hymn. meng is good man. she can sing DAMN WELL. haha

hmm, then math. then jiayi was walking walking. suddenly he turned around and said "PUSH WHAT PUSH" then i got shocked. then haha, i looked, and i saw that the guy was a sec one or two. then jiayi was like "im sec four, i must show that im superior" HAHA DAMN FUNNY LAH. he only says that kinda thing to ppl smaller than him. HAHA

then i went in and draw the curtains immediately then i "FRUIT! SEE, I DRAW THE CURTAINS" then he "GOOD JOB" haha that tardd. math was pretty alright. every lesson's just chatting sessions. tahah.

english was next. chatted with mund choooo. that ass did sth damn stupid. he ate the germinating bean which was soaked in hydrogen carbonate. and he said he felt miserable. THAT TARD. which person with the correct mind will eat A GERMINATING BEAN in HYDROGEN CARBONATE?!!!? that maddd ass. then i was saying that i got test. then mund was like "you got learn anot" then gave me that kinda cheeky smile. idiot man. HAHA

recess was alright. ate cereal (: haha and i ate damn alot. FAT FAT FAT. hmm then colin was damn funny. "MY WATER BOTTLE DAMN POOR THING. GOT WINNER'S VOMIT, VEN'S SALIVA. AIYA. BAO GA LIAO LAH" DAMN DAMN DAMN FUNNY LAH. elis and i laughed like mad. u should have seen his face, and hear the way he said it. haha damn freaking funny.

then i sprayed water at neooo! haha super funny lah. he says that he doesn respond to sucker. everytime i shout "SUCKER!" he SURE, CONFIRM PLUS GUARANTEE, will turn around! HAHA HES DAMN DAMN CUTE LAH! "sucker!" "WHAT, ASSHOLE" hahaha neo is so freaking cute! haha

hmm amath test was a killer. ohwells. haha after school. went to ikea. had meatballs. yah. had fun. then went back to school. then went home prett early. yupp.

then the night was bad. darn freaking bad.

WEDNESDAY
chinese was first. slacking session. then amath. WHAT A BORE MAN. i hate wednesdays. 3 periods. time past like i duno what man. like HMM an ant crawling from singapore to the sun. haha.

then bio. pretty alright. recess was fun. had cereal again. i ate three bowls. argh. haha. then 3 periods of chinese. HAVOC MAN!! (((: we played cards. took photos. played with bluetooth. damn funny. sending pictures here and there. sending notes here and there. shouting across the classroom, WHO IS PIRATE, WHO IS CUTE GIRL? WHO IS CHOCOLATE. haha damn damn fun i tell u! and then i was like "WHO THE HELL IS GONE DRINVIN?" then jiayi mumbled "ohno, i spell wrongly." then mel heard then she told us. HAHA SUPER FUNNY MAN. its supposed to be GONE DRIVIN. haha! pictures will be up soon (: I LOVE FOURDEE!

HEYY MY DEAREST DEAREST FOURDEE! I LOVE YOU ALL. SO SO MUCH! I LOVE THE TIMES THAT WE HAD. HOW WE LAUGHED, GANGED UP AGAINST TEACHERS, HELPED ONE ANOTHER AND STUFF. PAINTED FLAGS TGT. I LOVE YOU ALL! (:

and and, someone sent fruit a sms. then his phone rang. then we OHHHHH. then mel" WHOSE WATCH IS THAT?" haha damn funny! then the teacher whacked clarence with some hammer thing. then fruit "FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!" that retard. HAHA

haha then i kept shouting, lets take class photo! then the cher scold me ): HAHA then i just OH, IM SORRY. haha

hmm. three periods of english. had compre test. i fell asleep while reading the passage. then i ketp dozing off while writing. so my paper looked like crap. seriously. haha.

then after school. went for the juniors' match. then yah. was sitting on the bench. then yujia pushed me. and i just fell backwards on my ass. then my phone hit the ground )): got scratches. and my ass got blue black. so the juniors won. yay! haha then lin, xinyi, mel and i formed a team with ying ying, kaeshin and xinghui and played agst clementi town. we won (: TAHAH.

then after that. caught up alot with my darling pet monkey. HMM. DARLING, I LOVE YOU OKAY! (: and im ALWAYS ALWAYS here for you okay!

ben ooi came over to say hi. damn funy lah the action that he did. haha. then he said hi to miss lee, but miss lee was smsing then

yongzhi: "miss lee smsing bf ah!"
miss lee "SHUT UP LAH!"
ben: miss lee, u want me to hit him for you?
miss lee: yes. make sure u hit him, in fact, u can take all the balls and throw at him. hit there there you know there. below the abdomen there. even better. or make him bang into the wall, woah best.
ben: woah, miss lee. ni gou hen.

ben: miss lee, want to play captains ball?
yongzhi: aiyah, she cannot catch ball wan lah
miss lee took the ball and threw at yongzhi, or rather, pass to yongzhi. HAHA

me: yeeleen, what other country shirts u have beside england and holland?
yeeleen: LIVERPOOL
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
me: LIVERPOOL IS NOT A COUNTRY!
yeeleen: OH! then no more alr. i only support this two countries,

haha and yeeleen is damn gullible. shes damn damn damn funny. she made me laugh like shit. but then she doesn know why i was laughing. haha she wants to bring the corporation girls into jjc. she brought us to fairfield and she wants to bring us to jjc. hmm. but i dont like the culture there. its like from cps, to fairfield then back to cps. i like fairfield's culture. HMM

me: shahidah! yujia! play for us for pesta sukan okay!
yeeleen: eh! u didn ask me!
me: huh why must ask u!
yeeleen: they are my bdiv players okay
me: okay, yeeleen, can they play for us?
yeeleen: okay! (smiles cutely)

HAHA DAMN IDIOT LAH SHE.

hmm so chatted with lin. then sth really big happened. ohwells. played cards with the juniors. then sat outside school with lin. conferenced with miss toh and miss yeo about sth. talked to some idiots. ohwells. damn stupid. i was damn pissed off when that freaking bitch said "YOU HAVE A BAD RECORD" to me. i was like wth. and i started scolding her. haha i was damn agitated. shes just a mad bitch lah. wahlao. shes really too much. then she kept threatening me. like what the hell she wants man. thank god, miss yeo came to OUR rescue. left at around nine.

oh, and mr lim drove out. then he was asking me where im going. then i said "home" then he asked where. then i said "jurong" then he "okay byebye. out of the way, i thought i can drop u off" haha cher cher damn nice lah! then he said "im rushing off, u all take care" haha cher rushing off. HEH, thats damn scary i tell u. that time he drove me to kallang. DAMN DAMN FREAKING FAST. damn scary lah! hahah.

bussed home. met jaclyn at the bus stop. then that sweetheart stayed overnight. so i didn blog. we chatted till we slept. haha.

THURSDAY
went to school. so yah. was like some zombie. haha. first lesson. english. then winner was asking me sth. so i was replying her. as in she was quite far from me. then miss mano scolded me then i said "my fault again? sorry" wahlao. everytime my fault wan lah. haha. then i was talking to my dearest mund choo. then she "kimberley, can u go back to where u were sitting" then i didn move. then she "can u go back to ur original seat?" haha i was beside mund al the while. just that he telling me secret, then i go nearer to him. idiot lah. in the end, still the same. also can talk. haha

AND AND, i freaking lost my tie. so im wearing his tie (: HAHA

hmm. chinese was next. three periods. mel elis and i were just talking about everything man. from couples, to rating guys, to her dad, to shane. blah blah. anyway, SHANE IS HELL SWEET TO MEL LAH. wth haha. and from what i heard, shane is a nice guy. hah good, mel's in good hands. haha. and mel's dad is hilarious. "I SAW UR LIL PRINCE, AND I SHOOK HANDS WITH HIM(flashes the super happy and cheeky smile)" HAHA! and mel told me about this girl. wahlao, i didn know lah. now i think shes a total bitch man. UGH.

and we kept mimicking cedric! haha IN OUR SUPER SUPER LOW VOICES! haha

hmm then recess. pretty okay. hmm

hist was next.
mr ow to dricee: cedric, can u go and get a chair? i thought u went to get a chair thats why im telling stories
dric: huh. im waiting for u to say okay, go get chair.

HAHAHA stupiddd fruit!

lit was next. ate my choc bar. i accidentally touched joash's ass cause i was poking sth at the edge of the table, then he climbed past. haha. then i use my water bottle and wash my hand. then i spray the water on miss hia's floor. then she stared at me with wide eyes, in horror "WHAT ARE U DOING?" "oh, washing my hand" HAHAA

hmm then class contact. had to paint flags. haha dric was damn funny. "AHH MISS YEO! MY ONE SURE CAN" then he got rejected. HAHAH he wrote "LION CITY" and drew a SUNFLOWER. haha its a lion but it looked like a sunflower. HAHA damn freaking funny. then he wrote HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY LION CITY, then can! haha then i drew a lion for that idiot. haha super funny lah he. i took photos! will upload them soon! haha

AND I WANT A NEW DIGI CAM BADLY!

hmm after school. played cards at the street soccer court there. fsw had a match agst players who are not in soccer. so after that, alot of ppl played captains ball! my team! NIC, COR, JAROLD, KENNETH, NEO and me. against WENYAO, ALEX, KONG, LIANGFU, KIEFER AND AILEEN.

then after that, terence came and jiayi came also. HAHA I TELL YOU! TONY TAN JIAYI IS FREAKING FUNNY. he kept wanting to mark me. then he cannot stop talking. HAHA SUPER FUNNY LAH. and he scratched me, then bled. HAHA. and he said that jarold's a damn good defender. alex was damn funny. he threw the ball at wenyao. then hit wenyao's ahem. then he kept apologising then wenyao was like "WAHLAO IM NOT AS SHORT AS U OKAY!" damn mean lah! how dare u scold my mum like that! ASSHOLE. haha. and neo was damn funny, as usual! haha

but i tell u, capt ball was damn damn damn damn damnit fun! ((: and i had a great time laughing. haha

then cabbed home with alex and kong. im damn happy lah. finally, AFTER SO LONG. i get to talk to my dearest mumi alex leong. hmm, so yah. had pretty much to talk about in the cabs. those two idiots took my phone and read my smses. but all no name wan. i also duno why. my phone is screwed up. haha i take damn long to reply a sms cause it takes like a minute to send it, and u cant cancel it. i think its cause i drop my phone too many times.

hmm. so thursday was a great day for me. capt ball, cab home, got to talk to mumi and kong. and yah. yay! im happy! (:

hmm and i didn eat dinner. was too tired to eat. just laid down and smsed. then everytime i close my eyes, my phone will ring. haha i was smsing quite alot of ppl. then i couldn sleep in peace. but i slept at ten plus. tahah. and my ass the blue black there damn pain lah. hmm. and i was awoken by smses three times. wahlao, i was damn pissed off. i hate to be disturbed when im sleeping. i'll get grouchy. haha. i didn have anything in my stomach from 2pm all the way to the next morning. haha

oh, and sorry jarold. i threw the ball at ur head. not on purpose wan okay. who ask u to look away. haha

FRIDAY
HMM. lets see. OHYAH, anyway. these few days, that stupid penguin pmsed like hell man. crazy wan lah she. mad mad mad mad mad tardd! hmm so chem prac was first. nth much. then lit. it was some shit thing. must perform. haha sang songs and stuff. i asked colin to pass me a marker. then he threw, AND IT WENT FLYING and KOK, into elis's head and my marker flew away. HAHA. and i was sitting cross legged on the comfy comfy chair. then chye aik kicked me away. then i kept asking colin to push me back. haha

and i did some filter paper letter for him lah. then dun even know if he appreciates it or not. ohwells.

hmm ss test was next. finished the filter paper. then i started on my test. heh, didn know much. so yah. haha its okay.

then recess. had alot of fun. i teared, cause the food was too spicy. HAHA. i cant take stuff thats too hot. yah. then shoot ice at elis. haha super fun lah. and my stomach was burning and i felt miserable. haha.

emath was next. i hate miss yeo's classroom! ITS LIKE AN OVEN! ohanyway! i like my flag alot! HAHA although its stupidd! haha.

hmm then next was BIO! I LOVE MR CHAN'S CLASSROOM! AIR CONNNN! miss yeo's classroom sucks totally. HAHA. ohyah! and when i was walking down to mr chan's classroom, i malued myself lah! elis was behind me then she said "going down the stairs can kill me man" then i didn say anything. then i heard her voice beside me "BITCH" then i was blur so i HUH WHY, in that kinda sleepy tone. then i turned and look at her. then i got a shock of my life. i was like totally shocked. elis became so dark??!?! then the indian girl chuckled and walked down, then she said to her friend, "i was calling u a bitch" wahlao eh, damn malu lah. she sounded EXACTLY like elis! REALLY. oh crap. haha

hmm so bio was a bore. i slept. and wenyao and elis didn wake me up! and i tell u. i keep typing and and and in my post. then i wrote letter, keep and and and. then miss mano circled all. like got 11? haha. then i woke up suddenly, cause it was dman noisy. then i WHAT HAPPENED?!?! then i realised everyone packing up to go home. wahlao. haha

after school. chye aik threw alot of leaves at me. then i threw back at him. then i went to throw at fruit. then he was like "WANT TO FIGHT ISIT. U THINK I SCARED U AH!" then i say "COME LAH IDIOT." then he walk towards me, and past me to miss mano's classroom "eh, you, come fight lah!" then i "HUH" then he "im not talking to u right, im talking to the one inside" then he knocked on the window and talked to it. HAHA THAT IDIOT.

had phototaking. my hand is still pink from all the marker ink. so i just kept going around, bluffing ppl that my hand very pain. then EVERYONE "you okay not! what happened" haha thank you to all those who said that. i feel damn ass. HAHA

phototaking was fun. got one picture dont have my face. cause those STUPID IDIOTS, namely, aileen stephanie tham luo yau, nicolette sum hui yi and julia tong jin shi pushed me off my chair. then i was like facing down?!?! hahah. but phototaking was much fun.

then after that, had instant noodles for lunch. dear aileen brought them and haha, she brought a kettle too! haha idiot man.

so we played asshole taidee. then monkey came "OH NO! I LOST MY BAG! HOW HOW" then she was so kanchiong. then i said that i go find with her. then i asked her where did she leave it then she said i left it there, then we walked there. it was right where she left it lah! haha that blur queen! then yah. walked around with elis and joshua. hmm. yah. then after that. played captain's ball. julia, aileen, me, yongzhi blah blah. then we waited for very long to play with neo they all. stupid neo. HAHA SUCKERRR! then he will ASSHOLE, LOSEERRRR. MAN, NEO IS DAMN FREAKING CUTE! haha

"NEO! HURRY UP CAN A NOT!"
"can u wait? -cheesy smile"
"NO CANNOT! SUCKER. dont talk to u alr"
"oh shit"
"we need to go by eight, hurry"
"eight? (looks at watch), (2 seconds later) DAMIT"
HAHAHAHAH HES DAMN FUNNY!

so waited for a long long long long time. then we started playing. aileen julia and i against neo, jarold, leon. then julia left like a few minutes later? then kenneth played for us. then yah. played awhile. then aileen and i left. cause they left to play soccer. so nice of them lah. and stupid jarold lim u go die, throw the ball at my leg. revenge ah? asshole.

and sorry aileen, i threw the ball at ur head. NOT ON PURPOSE WAN OKAY. really really. yupp.

and thank you mousey. he kept asking me to cheer up, cheer up. haha that idiot.

i have so many things on tmr lah! so hmm, im going out with joel they all then going to kengheng's bbq (: haha. yay! i cant wait! it will be fun! (: haha.

ohwells, are things getting better? seems like it, but well. i dont know.

why? why is there always a guy whos damn nice to me when im down? and most of the time, i will fall for him. but this time, no. im not gonna like anyone anymore.

and to those six people, seriously just get lost.

AND THANK YOU! I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN U MESSAGED ME! ((:
tahaha guess who guess who! ITS HER! (: HAHA <3!

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7/22/2006 12:11:00 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

im fcuking crying now. fcuk, it hurts damn bad. so fcuking bad.

we have never not talk for such a long period of time. never. and i wasnt the one who didn reply. i did okay. u smsed others and not me. i wanted to sleep. but i couldn. every second, i was just waiting for my damn phone to ring. it rang, but the smses werent from you.

you have changed so much. so fcuking much.

i just kept thinking and thinking that i couldn sleep. i dunno why. just recalled this day that i didn go to school. and when i woke up, my phone had five smses. FIVE. they go sth like, hey u there, just left house blah blah. then eh, u sleeping ah, wake up, later u miss the bus stop. hey wake up now! u didn come to school isit? heyy you there, did u come to school?

and now? what are we?

why am i so fcuking affected? i kept telling myself that its alright, and that it doesnt matter. since he doesnt care now, why should i. the last time i said this. he kept on telling me that he cares, it matters. all those reassurances. fcuk everything now. what the hell is going on.

im so damn freaking upset. i am.

i kept myself going cause of clement. his smses and everything, they made me smile. made me laugh. they cheered me up, but that sweet guy doesn even know whats going on with me.

and i have been freaking bad to certain people lately. im so freaking sorry.
been rather grumpy and a lil hot tempered. thanks to everyone for bearing with me.

i hate to cry. i really hate it. but i cant stop the tears. why do i even bother, to still write u a card and stuff. and put it in ur locker. why do i still bother. why am i the one trying to salvage everything and u are not. why am i trying so freaking hard.

KIM, PLEASE STOP TRYING. PLEASE STOP BEING A FOOL.

to that girl. if u think its fun pointing at me and laughing, and all those. come on, freaking grow up. you freaking jealous kid. so we arent what were last time. but still, u and him are never even gonna be what we are now, though things are so bad. so, freaking grow up please. if u think that all those dissing actions are amusing, i seriously think that ure sick in the mind. if u think that dissing me is fun, i have only "childish" to say. all i know is that ure jealous. that ure trying to laugh at me to make me feel worse. ohwells. let me tell u sth. its nothing surprising after knowing how hard u have been trying to get him. all ur smses, actions and everything. even if i were to give him up to you, he will never ever like you. if you think that im wrong, then go ahead. carry on with ur wonderful thinking and continue dreaming that he will be urs if i let him go. the point is, im gonna let him go, and lets see if he will like you. so laugh all you want, just dont cry in the end.

you are so different.
this weekend, guess its off between us. i was so looking forward to it.

im gonna let you go, but i will hold on to the memories. they are beautiful. far more beautiful that anyone can ever imagine. im gonna cry, alot, alot more. i guess. i really do love you. but i didn treasure you as much as you did treasure us. i was pretty bad. i brought it upon myself i guess. so i tried to salvage it. maybe i saw an improvement. but maybe thats just an assumption. i have no idea how we will end. but i dont want it to end. i dont want. its surprising how your love for me kept growing and mine just stayed stagnant. and its even more surprising that we have switched positions now. my love for you is increasing and yours for me, dropping. though you claimed that whats lost is lil, and its not decreasing anymore, it hurts. and im feeling damn insecure and everything. maybe it will be better if i end it now. but i cant bring myself to do it. what is there left to do? i dunno. i have never faced this kinda situation before. never. i was wrong to have liked another and stuff. and i was wrong to even think of going with that person. but i have come back to you. and now, things are in such a bad state. im at my wits end.

i really want us back. really.

thanks to all who smsed me and stuff. thanks yah. people who are always there, nic, elis, chye aik, lissa, jaclyn, christina, corinne, sheranne, clement, joel, edmund, yunxing, xinyi and so on.
though i didnt tell most of you whats going on in my life, i wanna thank you all for being there and for caring. for asking about stuff and showing your concern. im sorry that i didnt reveal to some whats inside me. but i really appreciate you all, darn alot.

wonderful friends that God had blessed me with-

a jolly outward conceals a bleeding heart. now, the hurt is too big for me to hide.

im calmer now.
perhaps i should think, in his shoes.

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7/18/2006 11:29:00 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006

seventeenth july two thousand and six.

a monday. i was suffering from monday blues. woke up with eyes that were so small. so small. but wait, i didn cry last night. i didnt. and it the the first time in these two weeks that i did not. i was happy, i was.

the usual routine of washing up and getting to school. such a mundane routine. but i will miss it. its gb day today. my bestest bestest bestest best friend was pulling the flag. she pulled so fast, or rather, the other person pulled so slowly, that her flag which is the school one almost surpassed the singapore flag. my heart was thumping away for her as my eyes grew wider with horror at the flags looked levelled. thank god nothin happened. or my darling would have been suspended.

so yes, winner had some problem this money. as in shes not well. so yah, heyy girl. get well soon alright?

so math was up first. and cedric was as usual, a pain in the ass

"dricee, can you draw the curtain?"
"you cannot draw ah. u no leg no arm ah?"
"you nearer can help me right?"
"stupid fruit, so selfish. cannot change for the better ah?"
"i will change, but its not cause im a fruit." -stands up and draw then curtains.

hahaha that mad tardd. then the whole class was laughing. the gb girls came back, and following them into the class was gerald. he was late. then we were like "YOU GB AH?" haha and i was happily telling elis all that had happened over the weekend. yah.

pe was next. i was dreading it so bad. i hate the field. slippery, dangerous and accident-prone. so we had to do touch rugby today. it was quite boring at first. haha but i got more excited as i saw cedric's team play agst aaron's team. it was damn funny. that stupid fruit was like shouting and screaming like some mad ass, LIKE ALWAYS. haha hes like always so enthu, so excited and yah. haha

so mel, lissa, jacq, evan, yunxing and i formed a team. we played against colin's team. WE WON (: haha. so yah. then we splitted up. jacq evan and yunxing in a team. mel lissa and i in another. played against each other. haha fun fun fun! (: i was so tired lah. run and run and run like some mad person. haha our team won 8-1 (: YAY! and i scored five or six. HAHA our team's good. RIGHT MEL? (: the teacher asked if mel and i play for club. HAHA rugby? NEVERRR! haha and the teacher kept calling cedric frederick. haha and that led me to start calling cedric FRUITDRIC! haha nice name aye sis. haha

recess was much fun!. the stfs plus mel ate together. then martha, sze and jelin went off. leaving the seven of us behind. so we were laughing and chatting and everything. damn, it was sweet (: haha. so yah, we were giving names to each other.

mel: lil miss horny
jacq: lil miss clumsy
elis: lil miss cheeky
evan: lil miss procrastinate
lissa: lil miss whiny
yunxing and i not confirmed ): haha
cause they kept wanting to call us lil miss bangladesh. stupid asses. haha lil miss brownie nicer lah! haha i dont mind us being lil miss b1 and b2. we are twins! haha idiot. so yah, i think im lil miss lazy. i dont know lah haha. and we planned what to eat for recess tmr (: cause we were so SICK of the food in school.

CEREAL AND MILK (: haha OH DAMN, i haven buy finish. i better go buy later. HAHA! and i can get my ten bars of hersheys YUM. we are gonna eat cup noodles on another day! haha

ss was next. i was tired. and i wanted to sleep. haha then i got sms (: so yah. mr ow asked colin to ask three people to sit and two to stand. so he said "MINHAO! SIT STAND SIT STAND SIT!" cause minhao was standing. haha our fourdee joke. haha nth much happened actually.

chem was next. miss liang let us rest for sometime. then i was like sleep? "YAY!" then chye aik was sayin, "you sleep u wont wake up lah." haha i slept a lil. and i did wake up okay! haha i wanted to whack esmonde. cause he kept disturbing me. DONT DISTURB ME WHEN IM SLEEPING. i'll punch you i tell you. haha. and right. i was a bit the grouchy cause i didn have enough sleep. then i think i started going mad. i kept saying stupid things and doing stupid stuff. haha then suddenly i was like dozing off. then i heard elis said "MY PAD SHIFTED" then i " HUH?! WHAT!?" and i stared at her with big big eyes. then she started laughing," CAP LAH!" then i "orr, scare me." then chye aik was like "u retarded or what. so sleepy then suddenly, HUH WHAT then become so awake." hah super funny lah. then i was talking to dino then suddenly miss liang asked me to answer question then i "WHAT?!" haha then i "err errrr METHANOATE?" then miss liang said "VERY GOOD, ETHANOATE" then i HAHAHA. she heard wrongly but thank god for me luh.

oh suddenly i remembered what clement said yesterday. "im very stupid know. i always thought that if i stand on one leg, one leg will be shorter than the other. and if i carry something heavy for too long, my arm wil become longer than the other so i always switch switch switch." HAHAHHA that idiot

hmm after chem. i was damn sad lah. its really a 180 degrees change in mood i tell you. ohwells. forget it. youre just so different, now.

so i teared. but i kept saying that i yawned. thank you elis and lissa for being there. although i didn tell you all what happened. and thank you dino for always caring, always. and "you okay not? you want me to get lollipop for you?" made me smile. thank you my dearest pet.

went for chinese listening compre. i couldn concentrate at all.firstly, i was damnit tired. and i kept dozing off and i kept missing some parts. then i kept on thinking about stuff when i was awake. nothing was like processed in my freaking brain. shitman. im gonna do so badly. i freaking screwed up my orals and lc. freak man.

after that. was still pretty upset. went to dover to gt milk and cereal. then went to queensway with weijie, elis and joshua. then yah, thank you joshua for helping me to carry my bag. and yah, i felt much better. then ate at ikea. then bussed home.

a pretty much boring day i guess. hope tmr will be better.

> CLEMENT CHOY! u superrr idiot! wanna wish u good luck then u dont want to shake my hand! ): haha idiot, then sms me say sorry. GO DIE LAH YOU. anyway, thanks ah. although u werent aware of it, ur smses made me smile. and they definitely contribute a big part to why im feeling pretty alright now. thank you KOK CHOY! (: and you ah, better rest more. you need more chargin! youre a DEAD energizer. haha and sat sat sat! i wanna go lah! but i duno yet okay okay. i arrange first. hopefully i can go for all four events. haha

and she is so disgusting. i have never seen someone as thick skinned as her. shes not anyone i have ever mentioned in this blog, i think. but what she smsed him was ohmygosh. sickening. though i only know a teeny bit of it, its more than enough to switch me to YUCK mode.

/you said the max was two last time. i knew it was a lie. but i didn say anything. and now, its clearly more than two.

just when i thought maybe things are getting better. ohwells.
but now that i think back. i must apologise. guess i was being too pms-y just now. the lack of sleep does great harm to my mental self. im sorry.

> can someone please tell me that the tide is changing? that the situation's lifting? that youre coming back to what you once were?

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

saturday.

woke up. and then hanged around online. then went out at about three plus. met nic and julia at four plus. so nic wanted this pair of levis badly. then she didn had money. so yah. we thought of different ways to get money. and in the end, we sought help from NATALIE (: nic asked me to sms her "on the account of me, can you come to town?" sth like that lah. haha and natalie really came to pass nic money! HAHA and i got to see her! (: then nic was saying that "she wouldnt be so nice if i didn ask her" HEYY, NATALIE IS NICE OKAY! haha

so yah, went to get nic's jeans. so julia and i tried on some clothes. the skirt that i liked was like WTH. i buttoned everything and it just slipped off. it cannot even stay on my hip. so damn stupid. ugh. then we went to mambo at pacific. and i got a green skirt. cheap cheap. FIFTY PERCENT SALE! (: did i mention that i love this four lettered word? S-A-L-E (:

yahh, so after that we went to scotts. met jem and ken for dinner. haha dinner was fine. i tell you! it was so super funny. nic was telling us her experience of her losing her wallet. anyway, darling! dont be sad okay! hmm yah. it was damn funny i tell you. her actions, expressions and everything else! we laughed so loudly that people were staring at us lah! HAHA. she was cursing the person to go bankrupt and everything lah. haha then she was like "I THINK MY WALLET ROLLED OFF" that sent us laughing like mad cows! HAHA then suddenly we were all quiet then aileen said "YOURE SO DUMB" to nic. HAHA DAMN FUNNY!

then ate yami ice cream. my first time. cause i never ever tasted yogurt and i never wanted to. haha but i tried lah. quite okay. but i WILL NEVER touch BERRIES. YUCKS. they just look gross to me. and no no red coloured fruits for me. NO WAYYY haha

saw this mango skirt that i like. but there was no size for me.

hmm after dinner, we trained to lakeside. we went to julia's house. ken and jem went to play soccer with wesley they all. haha yah. so we played asshole taidee. and i won the first two games. my cards were damn damn nice lah. and we played twenty games. i was king eight times, queen eight times, joker twice and asshole twice. haham i was king for consecutively five rounds! (: yay! haha

then we were talking about shaun. haha and what happened the day before. haha.

jaclyn: i dont have any picture cards
shaun: HUH? all the cards got pictures what!

then he kept snapping the wrong cards.

and he was distracting us by doing some man figure thingy on the ground. and that blocked his view, he didn see the card that corinne put so he didn snap and he lost. HAHA damn funny lah. i like that say not funny, but in actual fact it was darn funny.

us: shaun u suck at taidee man
shaun: huh? but i only lost two games so far
us: but we only played two!

so it was fun. i love my girls. came home at midnight. then yah. went to sleep pretty soon after that.

and thank you joash for what you said to me. it helped. really. thank you

sunday.

woke up at seven am. watched some magic show on the bus. quite amusing. then met darren and clement at clementi. AS USUAL, KOK CHOY WAS LATE. then trained to expo. we met KENNETH ONG! hes handsome! and i tell you. hes so freaking tall now! hes like near 180? sec one he was shorter than me lah! WTH. haha

so i was going out with nic today. but she could only meet me at four plus. then i didn noe what to do. clement had soccer training. then i kept please please him to accompany me. then he was like he want and dont want. cause soccer is his life. haha

then he kept trying to help me plan what can i do. and everything lah. he kept helping me. asking about it and all. then in the end, he promised to accompany me till 3.45! (: THANK YOU CLEMENT! ure damn damn damn nice! (:

so service was fine. and i tell you. the mashed potato at expo's 7-11 is nicer than the rest. HAHA. oh yah. today's service was like so WOW. its like SO SO MANY people got healed! the blind can see, the deaf can hear. the lame can walk. AMAZING.

hmm so yah. then after the service. went to meet clement's dad. then we met his mum. his mum is nice lah and cute. but clement was so bad to her. then weilun asked her "auntie, u eating lunch alone ah" then she was like "yah, im so upset" cause clement eating with darren and i. haha

so trained to redhill. had lunch. chatted and stuff. haha those two lame idiots played soccer on the table, with their fingers with a LIME SEED. HAHA. then darren was like "kimberley, ur birthday comin right" then i "yah" then he "see i know" then i was like "coming, u dunoo when" "i know. seventh august right?" i was shocked. HAHA but i remembered his also lah! haha

darren left earlier. so clement and i just talked and stuff. then yah he went off to meet his friends after bringing me to the bus stop. then his friend told him that 132 takes twenty minutes to go to far east. so i waited for that bus. i boarded the bus at 3.44. at 3.47 i was at tanglin mall. IDIOT, WHAT TWENTY MINUTES. hahaha. but luckily nic's FRIEND went off earlier. HAHA. so met that darling at cine. then walked to wisma. tried on tops. got my topshop shirt (:

then went to pacific. then to far east. then to wisma again. then to taka, then to paragon then to heeren. haha nic drank THREE cups of drinks. haha i had starbucks and chippy sausage (: haha got something at paragon.

yupp. so i have my eyes on this skirt at heeren. and yah. nothing else i guess. haha gss is ending, i better hurry go buy things! haha

ohno i dunno how to plan my scheldue now.

theres movie with joel and people, going to kengheng's house (I MUST GO! he smsed me! im so happy!) haha, to clement's club. and i want to go out with you.

hmm how? i dunno man. i must see how.

theres math test tmr. mummy promised twenty bucks if i get a1. i doubt i can get it. haha. and thank god clement reminded me about my compre! haha or else im dead lah.

and clement choy! thank you thank you! haha you really crack me up u idiot. what camels, five star hotels and everything! haha u idiot. AND U NEED RECHARGING REAL BAD! haha mad energizer! thanks! (: love!

`nic! i was really honest with you today. i told you everything that i had kept inside me. i feel so so much better. and like i said, no matter what. u'll always be my best friend. and i love you, SO HELL ALOT. okay? (: and today was much fun! all those crazy laughing and those madness that we went thru while trying on ALL THE MANY MANY tops. haha <3!

and i was really happy when aileen told me that she kept all my smses! (: and aileen bluetoothed her pics to me!

im really happy now! clement and nic! (: haha i love you two! you two made me happy!

/perhaps things are getting better? perhaps. take care anyway. get well soon.

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