Friday, September 29, 2006
woah this sucks man seriously. my keyboard is freaking spoilt?!?! so means there are some letters that i cant type then i must use on screen keyboard to add them in later. super freaking IRRITATING! ugh!
damn damn this seriously is so damn sucky damittttt. i'll take hours to blog lah like that. ahh
today woke up at five ten. went to clementi. had breakfast at macs. hotcakes. was damn full lah. then bussed to school. heard bing and bong! so super funny! hah
then yeah so had a really long assembly. miss lim was telling us about the school's achievement and all blahblah. and our school has a lot of teahers lah! hmm so first period was physics so i had free period. went to the library. miss wong is so nice lah! i think shes quite nice what. why so many people say shes not nice? hah she helped me switch on the tv in the viewing room. then wahlao what titanic. so boring. so i just slept on the couch.
it was so cold lah. hah then 9 plus. we left the library. went to the skybridge for a while then after that had a talk in the hall. wa they asked about targets and all then i dont even know anything lah. i dont even know my l1r5 cause i didn go to shool yesterday. hah ohwell. then miss yeo came to talk to me. she asked me to be serious and to start studying. hmm yeah. then went to find miss mano to ask for my english results. then she was like "too bad i dont have anything with me now" woah hah shes damn nice man. then after that i went to find her again so she was like "you care about ur results? ure like one of the few who dont care. whole day talking to edmund" hah then anyway i got to know my results from the ppr. so totalled up my l1r5. i thought i would get like 30 points plus but i did much better than expected. its quite stupid. -_-"
then chye aik kept chasing me around and whacking me lah. and he asked choo to bully me somemore. then i kept pointing my fourth fingers at him. so stupid. hah. then he hit my head so many times lah. ASSHOLE. and he bullied me for nothing can. i DIDN EVEN DO ANYTHING! then he keep saying "ITS BECAUSE U DIDN DO ANYTHING THATS WHY I WANNA WHACK YOU" wahlao eh what did i do man. i didn even do any shit. asscrack. and he dragged me across the floor again. so freaking malu lah
haiya math was okay. nothing much. then was bio. so boring. anyway! mak wen yao! please cheer up! okay okay! hmm after shool just went to the canteen. then yeah slacked around. laughed and all. then aileen leon and i went to learn at fairfield to do work. so yeah it was so damn cold. i was like really frozen. then girlfriend came and lent me his jacket! (: thank you! your boyfriend loves you VERY MUCH okay! hah so yeah had alot of fun playing around and stuff. then nic and corinne came. then yah continued doing work and all. then after that aileen and i went downstairs to retrieve some ball thingy. then my girlfriend was so brave. he climbed over the gate and helped us to retrieve it. he fell somemore. thanks ah. sorry your boyfriend damn weak. HAHA. then aileen and i were chasing ken and jem around. so tiring. hah then went back to learnatfairfield then packed up and all. hah had alot of fun today! (: and yeah went for dinner after that. then now im home.
actually i have alot to say but this keyboard is seriously driving me nuts
oh then while i was running up the stairs today, some guy's waterbottle hit my hip. damn painful lah. hah then while running i saw miss yeo. damn freaking funny. then i was laughing like crap. hah. okay i like that say not funny lah.
OH OH! and ESMONDE TAN! congrats!!!!! (: heh that ass is the top in the level for emath lah! (:
hah and kengheng is damn cute!
oh and i saw miss mano after school. told her that i know my result alr. then she said "it is an incorrect representation. you should get lower" WOAH THANKS AH MISS MANO!! hahahaha
oh and i missed cell group )): david asked me during bio and i actually forgotten about it! man, so sorry.
hah i think i a bit the high. dont know why also
thought about alot of things today. felt kinda sad at some points in time and all then mr chan's words struck me hard.
what is the most important thing in your life now?
i know its my studies but i just cant settle down and study. there are so many other things on my mind always. so many other thoughts that keep on clogging my mind. seriously this sucks so damn hell bad. my studies have never been my priority. it never was important to me. but i know that it is important but i just haiya i dont know lah. so freaking contradicting.
i need to study. i have to study. i know its important. i better get down to it. i better learn how to shut out everything else and start studying. i better.
this morning reminded me of the times that we went to school together. then i was reminded of the times you bought gummies and chocs for me. the time you called me when you came back to school with my choc. but i was having remedial. then later on i was reminded of the dinners and all the times you waited with me for my bus. ohwell.
will they just leave me alone
/will you talk to me
> BLIND
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go
And I loved you more
Than you will ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go
its me whos meaning the lyrics this time round
but everything is too late, far too late.
im sorry, really so so super sorry.
i know its pointless saying that.
but i guess thats what i really feel like saying.
i so want a chance to make everything right.
but i know i wont have it.
so guess all i can do now is to leave it all behind.
and wish you all the very best.
and feel happy when i see you happy.
how contradicting ; so very contradicting
9/29/2006 09:46:00 PM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
i just woke up. hahah i didn go to school lah omg. last night was on the phone till 11. then was on the com till about one. then after that was on the phone again. bugged KC to tell me BING and BONG! hah funny funny. i shant type it out. until neo jun wei tells me the other two. selfish asshole. hahah
oh and the chat with nic last night was pretty nice. hah then added clement into our conv. then he started asking riddles and all. that stupid ass. he and his ONE DOLLAR plus HALF DOLLAR. damn idiotic man he. hah anyway. i got all the first 3 riddles right on the first try! then i got the other two wrong. he didn even give me 3 tries lah. asscrack.
hmm yeah. so i slept at close to two. then i was too lazy to go to school so i didn go. hah im hungry. i better go eat something soon. what shall i do today man. i dont feel like staying at home. perhaps i'll go study! HAHAH. hmm perhaps i'll sleep somemore. perhaps i shall go meet some people. tahah
hmm i so wonder should i or should i not.
i shall post moreeee lyrics! (:
> MEMORY
This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagined.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy.
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
Tearin' out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings disappear.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
-
> EVERYTHING IM NOT
Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you were something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
You're all by yourself
and all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
i hear the words you say; to never walk away from me and leave behind
9/28/2006 03:17:00 PM
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
home home homeee sweet home (:
today. i was almost late. but i wasnt late. so i had to take train again. there was this guy sitting next to me. then he keep calling ppl to talk. then right. he talked damn loudly. like hes the only one in the train. then scold all the vulgarities. then i had to blast my music to shut him out. -_-"
so was complaining to KC. so stupid. hah hmm yeah. so today we had to take back our papers. so first up. WOAH math. i passed! what a miracle! please cheer. nah just kidding. hah alex is so damn cute lah. hah and that ass didn bring calculator to paper 2. but he still did quite well! hah idiot.
so i slept. then next was ss. HAH i failed damn badly for the essay lah. who cares. you will die reading my essay. ask esmonde. HAHAHA. hmm so then i fail by a bt for ss overall. havent got back history yet -_-" but also sure fail wan nah.
recess was fine. then bio was next. i didn fail!!! like thank god thank god thank god! hah. yeah. so i copied down some corrections. next was amath. then took the paper. woah i got a super f9 lah. hahah. i slept for a long long time. then miss yeo asked me to drop amath. woah i want to. i shall ask my mum later. she keep saying i never put in effort. i totally shut off. i have no interest blah. which is true. amath is so sucky. eew. and im dropping because she said this "if you want to continue, i will make sure you come for my remedial everyday" wa siao, no way.
hmm so after school. was talking to someone. HMM. ass, dont be sad okay! cheer up! (:
then after that. caught up a fair bit with jaclyn. ahh i miss her. then i went to learnatfairfield to study.... HAHAH ate kitkat limited ed choc. the cappuccino wan. NICE! (: oh yeah so i did some bio notes. not bad right. hahahah
then went off for dinner. then was talking to miss hia. she said she didn expect me to do so badly for lit. woah thanks ah. i think im just gonna die lah. i so dont dare to tell my mum my results. maybe i shall disappear tmr. hah
ohwell. but i think she will be fine with it. i'll tell her that i'll start studying. and i must show that i got study. hmm its so darn hard.. HMPH.
so now im home. i feel unwell ): hmm. have to eat pear with salt. dont know why also. hah. hope i'll be fine soon
oh! yesterday night damn funny. leon and i went to wake neo up from his sleep! then he was damn sleepy. then when we told him why we call. HE WENT MAD. hah super funny. then we kept bugging him to tell us to tell us. then he kept refusing. but then in the end he relented. so he said OKAY four times. but he didn start. so FINALLY, he told us! hah i laughed like mad lah! damn freaking funny. imagine a sleepy neo..
"HI BING! HI BONG!"
woah i laughed like shit!
"BING! where are you! im in the cinema alr!"
"BONG! i think i cant make it!"
"HUH BING! why!"
"BONG! im at the mrt track! then the lady keep asking me to stand behind the yellow line!"
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH SUPER FUNNY CAN!!!!
alright. so i talked on the phone for three hours. not with neo lah. he said finish the joke then he just hanged up. HAHAH. i was so nice to stay up till 12 to call someone lah! just to wake him up. so nice right! hahah
i told alot of ppl the bing and bong joke today! hah and dricee splitted his pants lah! so funny. then he squat down. then i "err, dricee. your pants split ah?" then he "oh, just now" then he quickly cover. but he was wearing pants lah. hah so funny.
and so many so many ppl owe me choc bar! kiefer owes me two! and alot of other ppl also! YAY!
this is where i want to type so many things. and yet i cant. so ironic. ohwell. nevermind. so many funny things i wanna say but i shant.
suddenly feel like typing this.
we have many friends. and some are acquaintances, some are good friends, some are best friends and so on. buddies, pals blah. and there will be people who can make it up the ladder, climbing all the way up. being our best friends in no time.
and so. all our friends are different. your bestest friend may just be my good friend. or even someone whom i just say hi and bye to. you may not treat my best friend as yours. cause we have different preferences. the point is, no matter how close you are to anyone, he or she can never replace your bestest bestest bestest best friend in your heart. even if he or she is much nicer, much sweeter or whatsoever. cause the bonds you have with your bestest bestest best friend cannot be forged with anyone else. its not as if someone can just come and replace you. cause its different. that someone is not the same as you, and your bestest friend may not like him or her as much.
its weird how people think sometimes.
just feel like saying this. no friend can replace another friend. no one can replace you, no matter if she or he is tonnes better or whatsoever. cause youre special in your friend's heart. youre unique. no one is the same as you. no one.
drill that in.
hmm sounds a bit weird. i forgot how i said it out. typing it out is so different from saying it out. HMPH. hah. hope i get my point across though. hah so stupid. maybe i will edit it when i think of a better way to say it. that is if i can remember how i said it out. hahah
people change. they do. they can become someone unfamiliar just the next second. its so scary, isnt it.
some people are just too much. far too much.
things dont go unnoticed. im not unaware.
> KC! (: thanks for everything! hah for even trying to accompany me when i was on my way to school tho you were still in bed!! hah anyway! please cheer up! okay! (:
> I AM FOR YOU (DONT GIVE UP)
Something’s very wrong here
Your heart has frozen over
and something’s very strange here
You've lost all desire
The comfort we create to prove were something
But we're starving
Screaming in the night cause you want answers
From the one
And there is hope again
Don't give up you're not thinking
Don't give up just keep seeking
And I, I am for you
And I, I will love you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will save you
Come and take my face or forever walk alone
And all the same mistakes
Cause I know you, I deny you
Days go by and choices still remain forever
Right and wrong is black and white
The illusions of this world
And there is hope again
Don't give up you're not thinking
Don't give up just keep seeking
And I, I am for you
And I, I will love you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will save you
I send my self to you
Yes always and always
I send my self to you
I send my self to you
Yes always and always
I send my love to you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will love you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will save you
You found today, found today, you found today, with your life today
You found today, found today, you found today, with your life today
cause they flood ; they shut out all my thoughts
9/27/2006 09:57:00 PM
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
HAH HELLO!
i just came back home. was real hungry just now. so then i really wanted to eat kfc. so i went to clementi. to meet someone. then yah. ate kfc and all. then slacked at macs. taught him a lil bit of chem. and then we chatted for like 3 hours? hah kinda fun and all (: talked about many many things. laughed at many many things also. told him alot of things that i never tell other people. hah.
yeah. so im home now. anyway. just now dino sent me quite alot of songs. and yeah. some are real old and slow. i dont like. hah anyway okay lah you lao kok kok. thanks for all the songs. and i know you like the ones i sent lah! (: hah. esp ROOFTOPS. hah many many songs! me happy happy! HAHAH!
hmm had so many smses just now. suddenly. gave me a shock. hah okay lah my fault. i replied kc like 3hours later. hah sorry okay ass.
> you. trust god. you know his promise. so hold on to it if its really what hes implying to you. take heart! much love (:
> hmm. dont think too much. i mean. you asscrack. stop being so paranoid alright. i'll just chop off your head i tell you. and yeah. im gonna call you at 12. you owe me a choc bar (:
i replaced so many songs in my phone. like almost err 30? hah or even more! yay im happy!
okay. i have gotta go reply email. or someone will start whining and complaining! hah
> LAST FLIGHT OUT
I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show
I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop
Chorus
I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out
I'm afraid that
You will leave
As my secrets
Have been revealed
In my dreams
You'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now
I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop
Chorus
I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take the last flight out
the sweet words ; and promises
they hit me non stop ; and i mean, really non stop
9/26/2006 08:03:00 PM
BOOOOO SHIT.
hah im home (: so today. had chem. woah damn it lah serious. ohwell. hah then after that. had an hour of break. so slacked in the canteen with some of the lil misses. its so funny. mel was like "eh! dont watch johnny trucker must die. its a damn losuy show" then i "JOHNNY TRUCKER? HAHAHAHA"
woah damn funny lah. anyway, mel's eyelashes are so long. reminds me of someone. ohwell. hmmph. yeah. so we talked alot and all. kinda fun. then slacked at the locker. then had to go up to com lab for the dumb ne quiz. -_-" and we were two minutes late. then that pang asked us to line up outside. retarded man. anyway. at first i got so many correct. then after that so many wrong. hah im not a good singaporean. heyy no okay. im so PATRIOTIC lah!
so after that. i went home straight. then like about ten of us were standing at the guard post. waiting for VEN to come out. to compare him and his "BROTHER" the indian security guard. damn funny man. ven looked quite shock to see all of us standing there waiting for him. tahah then theres this another guard. he said "i have extra uniform. then you can wear. then you two will look more alike" hah damn cute
tahah. so now im home. supposed to go out wan. but think not going alr. hah nevermind. stupid thing, im not angry lah! neither am i upset! hah idiot.
anyway, i wil say this. is this for the first? I HATE CHEM. hah no lah, i so dont mean it. i better start studying lah. wahlao. i think when i get my results. my mum will just kill me lah. then maybe for the first time in my life, she will ground me. or she wont let me go chalet. WOAH damn scary. now im regretting like shit. why didnt i study. THANKS AH KIM.
DOOMSDAY TOMORROW.
and im like so broke lah! mummy didn give me allowance this week. thanks to my bill. thanks ah kim. message somemore. hah.
and i suddenly remembered something! ben told me that he went clubbing. some old old one. then he eighteen years old only lah, he got in without needing to show his ic lah! hah then he was telling me about the experience. then we were talking about him looking old and stuff. then we walked past this lady, holding posb flyers. then he asked ben if he wants to sign up. WOAH I LAUGHED LIKE SHIT LAH. hah so damn freaking funny lah!
hahah. anyway! im so happy! enshao sent me MANY MANY songs last night! ((: hah yay! thank you HIPPO!
and uncle bought me chunky monkey! (: hah im a happy girl!
HAHAH im laughing like shit!
chye aik. .. says:
u noe the rooftops?
chye aik. .. says:
i thought i hear until standing on the rooftop, wait until ur balls drop
> I COULD GET USED TO THIS
You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
I could get used to this
You think I look the best
When my hair is a mess
I can't believe you exist
I could get used to this
Because I know you're too good to be true
I must have done something good to meet you
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
You love the songs I write
You like the movies I like
There must be some kind of twist
But I could get used to this
Because you listen to me when I'm depressed
It doesn't seem to make you like me less
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
If there's a dark side to you I haven't seen it
Every good thing you do feels like you mean it
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
And I could get used to this
all the love i've met from you ; i have no regrets
9/26/2006 12:24:00 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
I JUST WOKE UP! hah im a pig! nah im not!
SUNDAY
woke up pretty late. was on the com. then went out quite late. met leon at clementi. then we bussed to queensway tgt. had waffle. ohyah! on saturday right, the auntie cheated me lah "you want crispy wan ah?" "okay" then she gave me a overcooked one. thanks ah. not even crispy at all. so hard. hah
so yeah met up with nic, cor, ail, jem and jarold at queensway macs. they did some work. while i just rotted. didn bring any stuff. cause i was going out.
hah left at 6plus. close to seven i think. then bussed to town. hah met BEN SONG! that ass, i dont look that short yesterday. cause i wore heels! hah idiotic man. so we had dinner at taka. and i didn finish my food again. had hazelnut oreo icecream at orangejulius. new flavour. kinda nice. im gonna try chocolate almond! WOAH I LOVE NUTS! (:
hah so we walked around and stuff. chatted and all. then we walked all the way to heeren. the shop that i wanted to go to was closed ): then we went to cine and walked around. then i wanted to watch john tucker. actually i can watch wan nah. then i dont know what the hell was i thinking. i went to call my mummy. and she said NO, cannot watch. -_-" but still i stayed in town till around 12. hah we were at starbucks. in between paragon and heeren there that one. hah. so yeah chatted alot alot alot. he told me many many stories! hah lame and funny stuff too. hah and yeah. my drink had no whipped cream ): hah
so yeah. ben said that im a good girl!! HAHAH and he said that i'll be a good girlfriend. then i was like. `i dont think so. then i told him lotsa stuff lah. then he said that i was a lil bad. HAHAH ohwell. i think that i was darn bad lah. ben said that, so now i know my mistakes then i must not be the same the next time round so that the same problems wont arise again. hah yes yes brother.
so that asscrack also broke up with his girlfriend. BEFORE I MET HER ): hah but ben said that shes very very very bad. after hearing everything. hah yah shes quite bad lah. and ben is such an ass lah. hah
he wanted to send me home. crazy! i stay in jurong lah. hah. then so we parted at close to twelve i think. then yeah i took 106. then was on the phone. hah
until i reached home. then my phone went dead. so i went to shower. then i talked to another person till 3.08 am. woah madness lah. then i talked to the first person until 4plus. crazy crazy.
hah then slept at closet to 5am. then woke up at 7.50 to go to school. I WAS NEARLY LATE LAH. if my granny hadn came home right, im dead. hah
so the paper was real tough. ohwell. i only have myself to blame. hah nvm. look forward. i went home straight after the paper. i badly need sleep. hah i didn go for lunch. sorry you guys. hah and yeah i slept from 12 till 7 plus. HAHAH and right i so wanted to kill my brother just now! people sleeping in the room, he purposely want to watch tv in the room lah! then what HI FIVE. so irritating lah. hah and he went to bathe, leaving the tv on. i so wanted to smack him man. hah
so now im up. no talking on the phone tonight. i must sleep early. hah.
anyway, BEN SONG! i had tonnes of funnnnnnn yesterday! i love you asscrack! (: and yeah, must meet up more often. the last time we met up was like almost exactly 6 months ago? 25th march. you asstard. hah so yeah, i hope you weren late for school today! hah idiot. take care! (:
hmm. im hoping for the best, but expecting the worst.
alright, i want dinner!
> NOTHING BETTER
Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That you're deserting for better company
I can't accept that it's over...
And I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry
So just say how to make it right
And I swear I'll do my best to comply
Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together?
I feel i must interject here...
You've getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help you remember.
I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave
So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling I love you so...
But oh, oh...
Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together?
Don't you feed me lies about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures
I know that I have made mistakes and I swear
I'll never wrong you again
You've got allure I can't deny,
But you've had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye
nothing will be the same ; only better or worse
9/25/2006 08:17:00 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
HEYYYYY!!!!!!!!! ((((:
i just woke up! a bit the early ah. i thought i would wake up at four. hah.
friday night
talked on the phone from 10plus till 12. damn funny. from very sad, we became very happy! hah then went to bathe then talked to KC from 1 till 3. hah damn funny. we were laughing like pieces of shit. then at three. when KC asked me to go and sleep. another call came in. only three minutes. hah i was too tired to talk alr.
SATURDAY
wokeup at one plus. then used com. then supposed to meet at queensway macs at three. i reached at 4.30. err sorry lah. hah. then did some work. woah i like never do at all lah. hah. then left queensway at 6 plus. nic jem jarold leon and me. then we bussed to town. met aileen. then there wasnt any show at cathay ): so we went to ps for dinner. then neo came along. then after a while, corinne came also.
hah yah. so we all had dinner at pastamania. then leon ordered exactly the same thing as me. damn stupid. then we ordered like pasta, combo a and potato salad. hmm. yah then after that, there was a mix up. cause neo leon and i ordered the same thing. then we were all holding on to each other's pasta. then we switched and switched. then had to pass the cutlery around and around. hah damn stupid lah.
then i ate damn lil. i couldnt even finish my pasta. i wonder whats wrong lah. normally i order like that right, i can finish wan nah. i didn even eat half of my pasta, nv finish my soup nor the garlic bread. and never finish the potato salad also. woah thanks ah stomach.
hmmph. then so yeah. slacked around and all. went into the same dvd shop as that time. wanted to buy dvd and go to someone's house and watch. but theres no one's house that we can go to.
so we actually spent alot of time stoning in ps. then finally we went off. then everyone went home. then nic jem and i took the same bus. so then we were talking about the night jog that the guys were embarking on. then after that jem asked us to run. then damn funny. we just rushed down the bus, waited at nic's bus stop for her while she went to get her stuff. then we took 14 to clem. jem went home. nic and i went to clem macs first. then after quite some time. jem came. then we didn talk. we kept mouthing to each other. cause nic was sleeping.
then after that. corinne came then aileen came. then leon came. leon is mad lah. before he came, he ran 4.8km alr lah! siao siao siao wan lah. hah then damn funny. neo hadn come yet. then no one wanted to call. so nic's sim card was in my phone. so i had the earpiece in my ear. then leon took the phone and call. then i hear the calling sound. then i just talked when neo picked up, without nic knwing. HAHAH. then neo was like panting. then he couldnt talk properly. he was to stops away from clem macs. hah
damn stupid. then when neo came. he was damnnnn wet. then we asked him,
"why you never take bus?"
"oh i was running. then wa sian, the bus went past" - neo
"then why you never take bus"
"cause i was so faraway from the bus stop"
"then why didn you wait for the bus at the bus stop?"
"i lazy"
HAHAH HE LAZY AND HE RAN ALL THE WAY TO CLEM. HOW SMART. hahah
so yeah. jem left. cause he had to go. then al of us sat in clem macs and talked. hah damn funny. we laughed and laughed like mad tards lah. we were laughing at like everything. what "your mother" then talked about neo walking damn slowly. neo really walks like a turtle i tell you. hahah. then leon was telling us about white tadpole. HAHA DAMN FUNNY. his friend catches tadpole, then roll them in liquid paper. HAHAH DAMN EVIL LAH. then talked about the food in primary school. fire alarm. the pond. hah then neo and nic were damn funny.
"friendsatnet my class create one" -
"NO! my class lah!" -nic
"no its my class"
"no its mine!"
"eh, youre in my class right!"
hah. talked alot. and marklim wore his watch on his leg! blahblah. alot alot of funny stuff.
hahah it was a damn fun time lah i tell you. lalala i was so happy! hah!
hmm yeah. then after that they went to jog. neo left halfway and cabbed home. hah i was in jeans and slippers so i stayed at macs and waited for them to come back. hah then yeah they came back after 20minutes. hah then slacked around a bit more. and we went home after that. aileen's dad came to pick the three of them up. then leon and i went home ourselves. hah yeah.
so reached home. showered blahblah. around four am alr. and woah thanks ah. i sent like 250 smses yesterday. ahhh
and i was so freaking mean yesterday morning. hah only some people know why. hah damn funny lah. ohwells. i don give a damn. tahah
ohyah! and on friday. jem ail and i saw two cats fighting. damn scary man! they flew at each other in the air. rolled into a ball and dropped on the ground. still growling at each other. so scary. hah
hmm yeah. haha im gonna go get ready soon. gonna meet perfect ten at queensway (: yay!
I LOVE PERFECT TEN! ((:
> BOSTON
In the light of the sun,
Is there anyone?
Oh it has begun...
Oh dear, you look so lost,
eyes are red
and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed.
You said,
You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.
yeah.
Essential yet appealed,
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field,
When flowers gaze at you,
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you
You said,
You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said,
You don't know me,
you don't wear my chains, oh yeah.
She said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to Spain.
I think I'll go to Boston.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of Sunset,
I hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice, oh yeah.
You don't know me,
And you don't even care, oh yeah,
Boston, where no one knows my name,
Where no one knows my name
Where no one knows my name, yeah.
Boston, where no one knows my name.
you can look back ; but dont be sad
9/24/2006 02:56:00 PM
Friday, September 22, 2006
HEYY! ((:
im home! hah im so super happy! ((: hah
LALALALA IM LIKE SO HAPPY! (: SINCE IM SO HAPPY. I SHALL TYPE IN CAPS! CAPS CAPS! HAHAHAH
SO TODAY! I WENT TO SCHOOL. OHKAY WAIT. BEFORE GOING TO SCHOOL. I REALISED THAT I DIDN BRING MY WALLET WHEN I WAS IN THE LIFT. SO I WENT BACK TO TAKE, AND SO. I MISSED MY BUS. SO I HAD TO TAKE TRAIN. HAH
HMM SO HAD TO GATHER IN THE FOYER. THEN HAD PRAC. PIECE OF SHIT. HAH ANYWAY. I WAS SO BORED THAT I PLAYED WITH THE CUCUMBERS. DOING ALL KINDS OF SHIT TO THEM. AND I GOT A HEADACHE. CAUSE CUCUMBERS STINK. HAH.
AND I GOT TO PLAY WITH ONION ALSO! MY FAVOURITE TOY. YEAH RIGHT. HAH. AND THEN I WAS STONING. THINKING ABOUT THINGS. THEN EVERYONE WAS LIKE RETURNING THINGS THEN I WAS RESTING MY HEAD ON THE TABLE AND THINKING OF STUFF. I DIDN EVEN HEAR WHAT THE TEACHER SAID. OMG LAH. NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE TO ME. BUT IT HAPPENED TODAY, A BIT THE SCARY AH. HMMPH. THEN WHEN I GOT BACK TO REALITY. I SAW EVERYONE'S TABLE LIKE ALMOST EMPTY. THEN MINE GOT SO MANY THINGS. THEN EVERYONE NOT AT THEIR TABLES, THEN I LYING DOWN THERE. THEN I HURRY HURRY RETURN THE STUFF. HAH. I SCARED MYSELF LAH.
alright, typing too much in caps like not nice. so i shall change back to no-capslock. hahahah. alright. so after the prac, had 4.5 hours of quarantine. THANKS AH.
sucks lah seriously. being cooped up in pa1. under the sea played cards. ALL sorts of card games. seriously, ALL. taught them number snap. thanks ah grace. hah she scratched me, and my finger bled. and the stains looked like choc ice cream on my uniform. -_-" tahah
so we played electric current, murderer. blahblah. everything. seriously, EVERYTHING we could think of lah. hah and right colin was playing the piano. hah and choo and dont know who lah. they played for 4 hours plus straight can. there was only like once when the piano was totally quiet. hah. and then i tried to sleep. so i fell asleep with 3 bio textbooks as my pillow. then nice jacq had to poke me and wake me up. then i fell asleep again. then fourE came in. woah freaking noisy lah. then cannot sleep alr.
hmph so continued playing and playing. hah anyway colin was damn funny. he was playing the piano. then he "EHHH!" then he played with one hand and adjusted the chair. one of the legs was slanted and he would sure have fallen out if he hadnt adjust it. tahah. colin is so damn funny lah.
anyway, the four hours passed like err an ant travelling to pluto. HAHAH. hmm yeah. anyway, mrs quek is real cute. hah and i can put a flex curve around my waist. ends can overlap abit. jelin ah! woah damn scary. hers can overlap quite alot ah. HAHAH that skinny bamboo.
and mrs quek is damn cute! hah
hmm so after the thing. met nic and corinne in the canteen. corinne went for interview. then yeah, hmm julia and aileen came down. then everyone went out or went home. except aileen and me. we went to dover market for lunch. i was so hungry from the quarantine that i didn feel like eating anymore. felt giddy and stuff. eew. hah. then we went back to learnatfairfield to study. yeah i dont even have a single book. study what shit. hah was just listening to music and teaching aileen chem. yeah
then yeah leon came over. then the three of us just crapped together and all. aileen and her hellokitty and doraemon joke. i got one part correct. not bad right. quite smart lah. hahaha!
hmm yeah. so went off at like 6 plus. almost seven. aileen jem terrance and i were at dover for like ten minutes. then we went off. hah yeah
so im really happy. i kept smiling! i dont know why! (((:
and hah KC is oogling at some hot girls playing netball now. that sucker. hah.
im going out with BEN SONG! ((: ahh finally! (((((:
and ohwell. im happy despite the problems that are rising up. im fine. i wont let them affect me. some people just go over the limits. seriously.
last night's chat was alright. slept at close to two. was kinda tired today. hah
ohyah and thanks to maple for saving my life (: HAH.
hah my nick is "eUu JuXtz rOcKk lARhhX" then chye aik's is "eUu JuXtz sArkKz lARhhX" tahah.
> ROOFTOPS
When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say we've had our fun
Will we make a mark,
this time
Will we always say we tried
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your heart out
All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set
Will we make a mark,
this time
will we always say we tried
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops
Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll Listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found
Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops
Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll Listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your..
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your..
hope for the best ; but expect the worst
9/22/2006 09:32:00 PM
Thursday, September 21, 2006
boo! (:
hah so im home. was on the phone from ten plus till 1am sharp. pretty nice chat and all. much laughter blahblah. hah. slept at 3 this morning. was on the com. dont know what i was doing also. hah
then woke up at twelve plus. took my time. then got to kap. yeah started making notes for bio. leon came at 3.30. yeah. hah so we actually talked more than we worked. thanks ah leon. hah and so, at the end of the day, i only finished one chapter of bio. hah woah, at this rate ah. i think i'll fail o's lah seriously. hah
hmm yeah, so i ate so much today lah. and i seriously put on weight lah. maybe like 3 kg or sth? woah just kill me man. thanks ah kim, for eating so much. hah
we had some real crazy laughing sessions. laughing like mad asses over things that actually are not very funny. hah
and there was this couple. at first i see the girl, ehh quite pretty eh. but then after a while then not pretty alr. hah she was with her boyfriend. then they were sitting at the long bench. so they were like sitting on much higher chairs, meaning everyone can see them. hah and they were urm you know you know. hah damn distracting lah! hah super funny. cause we look down at our work, then we look up to think or sth, then we will see them, cause they are directly in front of us! hah damn funny. then we keep giggling. hah leon said that the girl looks like his church friend. hah the guy has a cute face. hah and the girl is older i think. hah hmm its just so funny lah. tsk.
i think im crazy alr man. tahah so my phone cable went crazy. or perhaps its my phone. so i cannot transfer songs to my phone. so leon put them in his phone and bluetoothed them to me. thanks ah mousey. hah that idiot used my phone and took so many photos of himself. WOAH THANKS AH. hah. so yeah, it was pretty fun and all.
yeah so just packed my worksheets. gonna give all the chinese ones to the sec threes. hah. so thick lah the file. madness. hmm yeah. and i found this set of papers. i read thru them, and guilt struck me. ohwells.
hmm. anyway, neo junwei. you still havent tell me whats pandi lah. -_-" sucker SHICK.
theres bio practical tmr. fourdee first shift, 4 hours of quarantine. THANKS AH. woah thats like hell long lah. its so crazy. i think i'll bring beardy and my cushion. then can sleep in the lecture theatre. hah. im just kidding. bring beardy there, he will come back as bear dy. torn into half ah. hah stupid man.
anyway, yesterday was funny. my granny and i were watching tv tgt. then we were throwing beardy at one another. so funny. hah and i have yellow toenails now. gonna paint a layer of green over. yay. hahah.
mummy just came home. she showed me her nails. she went for manicure. hah so cute lah her nails! so small, and ovalish and cute! hah and so pretty! thanks ah mummy. HAHAH
and i thought of this yesterday! have a sunshine smile, they brighten people up, at least for a while! (:
/ KC. hmm. didn really talk to you these few days. didn talk on the phone. didn sms much. and yeah the nightly smses stopped too. hmm i dont know whats wrong. but i hope ure fine yeah? hmm. kinda urm i dont know. well, take care.
> MIXTAPE
You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know
But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I only wish there was so much more than that
About me and you
You talk to him, inside it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me,but you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know
cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain't so sad
I only wish there was more than that
About me and you x2
(Bridge)
oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me your friend
I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
that you thought was gay
No I can't find the words I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
and it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
and let's get messed up and listen to possibly...
The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you
and it struck me like crystal clear water ;
9/21/2006 09:50:00 PM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
neh neh pok.
hahah i dont know why i keep saying that. hah not really keep saying lah. just sometimes. hah i dont know also. ahh madness. tahah
woke up at 9.15 today. was waiting for mummy to finish showering. so i was grumbling. asking her to hurry when gran said, isnt there another bathroom. then i ohyah, im so dumb. hah so had a nice lunch or rather breakfast (: yummaye. then went off to school. took 99 to clementi. then right, i checked my phone. ohh must reach ten minutes before practical. which is 10.35. now 10.22! HOW HOW. so i took cab. reached school at 10.30
then everyone was like taking their own sweet time. blah. in the end, we had to be kept in the lecture theatre till 11.45. the pract's at 11.45. WOAH THANKS AH. i took cab for NOTHING lah. THANKS MAN. hah and gerald didn come. so funny lah he. either late, or got attire prob, and today, he didn even turn up. hah best man.
hmm so the pract was yah, real hard. dont know how to do and all. but nvm lah. hah chye aik said that im the only one who can stil be so happy tho i screw up the paper. hah i dont know if im the only one lah. but thennnn, the point is. theres no point being sad! we cant change anything. so we shouldnt think about it! the time you spent being sad can be used to study for the next paper. and you'll do better for sure! hahaha so dont worry lah all those who think you all will do badly. who knows, maybe actually your answers are right! hah so dont be sad alr okay. look forward. the world doesn wait for you to get over your sadness! hah (:
hah so after that was at the locker. talking blahblah. chye aik is such a bully lah ): and dricee goh also. you watch out man. assholeeeeee. hahah anyway chye aik pushed me and i slided on the floor. WOAH PIANG. super unglam lah. hah ohwells, who cares. tahah.
so he made me run around like some idiot. hah. neo and leon were going off for their live firing. so was talking to them. asking leon to take care of neo's head. in case the birds fly away when they hear the bang bang or someone will just take neo's head as the target cause there are birdies living inside! hah
hmm so yah. enlightened elis at the stone table. HAHAHA enlightened. im serious! tahah. then yah. lunch with nic cor and jul. pretty alright. ate alot man. hah then we talked and all. went off at 3plus after aileen came back.
then julia went to nus high. cor got on 196. nic and i were talking talking then we were going to board the 14 when aileen called and asked us to wait for her. hahaha the next 14 took so long to come. and aileen taught me how to copy and paste stuff in message. so cool lah. hah
so yeah bussed home and now im homeee. hahah just read an email (: hah they never fail to make me smile! you sucker piece of shit! hah
hmm yeah. so tmr kim has no paper (: YAY! no school. lalala i can wake up late. and rot and rot. YAY! hah okay im so mean. i know some ppl have physics tmr. SORRY LAH OKAY! HAHAHA I DONT MEAN IT. nahh kidding.
siao i think im damn high. even though im not talking to nic. whenever i talk to nic online, i go damn high. hah
anyway, that day was madness. leon and i were both damn high. then we had the same wallpaper. then our nick is directed to each other. mine was "SERIOUSLY THANKS ALOT!" then his was "SERIOUSLY NO PROBLEM!" then hah so stupid lah. then we switched nicks. so he became me and i became him. so stupid lah. hah we were damn high. keep typing rubbish also. siao wan lah. haha
i shall go and find song lyrics. hah im so sleepy. i feel like eating orange julius brownie temptation all of a sudden. and esmonde is downloading garfield2! yay can go his house and watch. hah
and im so damn broke ))):
i have a story to post up but hah so lazy. maybe later on at night then i post. hahah.
and i slept at two this morning. i read thru this whole document, 51 pages. hah its all sweet stuff. cried a fair bit but im alright (:
> Take Me Away
This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time You burned me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away
I've seen it all and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away
I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what to say
What else to do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away
Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone
This time all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen it all and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away
Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away
your heart complicate matters ;
9/20/2006 05:34:00 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
hah i just woke up.
today was okay. woke up a bit late, but i wasnt late. the stupid bus was late. and i took cab ): reow. then right, in the end, the bus that i was supposed to take broke down halfway then the people in it were late but didn get booked. i should have waited. DAMNIT.
hmm so today. had emath paper two. its not easy but i can do some. i hope i dont fail. mummy called and nagged last night. saying she didn see me studying at all. everynight she come home, either im on the phone, or im on the com. ahh ohwells. im gonna start studying soon, i hope. but ahh its just so damnit hard. ohwells. hah
hmm after the paper. went with elis, grace, christine, kook and radinka to plaza sing. had kfc for lunch. then yah, walked around and all. saw things that i like (: i shall try to ask mummy to buy for me. HAH but most prob she wont lah. and i think she wont give me the ten bucks for cab fare today. im so broke.
hmm so yupp they shall be added onto my wishlist. hah left ps at one plus. bussed home. then yah, reached home and slept straight away. so i slept for bout 4 hours. HAH.
hmm gonna go offline soon. my bro has tuition.
so anyway, today i was looking thru some stuff and i found out sth that got me a lil upset. and yeah actually its quite upsetting lah, but im alright. yupp.
and its really shocking how sensitive someone can get. when i thought i was bad enough.
ohyah. today kook bought some korean drama, LIKE AGAIN?! hah. and yeah so we were in the video shop. and looking just at one rack of dvds i saw all these :
shes the man, when a stranger calls, big momma house two, the wild, eight below, take the lead, benchwarmers, yours mine and ours, poseidon.
woah i watched all those these year. a bit the alot ah. hmm ohwells.
so we were watching take the lead, standing outside the shop. hah so funny. hmm
anyway, last night's chat was quite bad. i was so sleepy, hah sorry. yupp and mummy woke me up at 12.42am to eat fishball noodles. hah
oh was supposed to watch just my luck and garfield with him. but we didnt. so today i saw the dvd.
"everything can change, in the wink of an eye"
hmm.
and they made me think ; those flashbacks
9/19/2006 07:42:00 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUA WEIJIE! (:
heyy im homee
hmm so yesterday night. i printed alot of lit notes. THANK YOU ESMONDE! (:
and then the smart(my foot) kim didn read thru. she was on the phone till one plus. then mummy shooed her off to bed. so yeah, pretty short chat. an hour plus. hah quite long ah actually. so yeah. woke up, feeling damn tired. HAH
then bussed to school. read thru the coloured papers of miss julia's workshop. then yah. amath was so easy. MY FOOT. i asked for more paper cause i left alot of blanks so that i can go back to them later. miss yeo came, i gave a forced smile. she said "you want two paper? thats a good sign" then i OHSHIIIIIIIITTTTTTT. hahahah she will just vomit blood when she sees my paper. HAHAHAH.
ohwells, the paper soooooo sucked.
then yah. had a break. then lit was next. i was late for a few seconds. and those who were late got scolded. -_-" anyway. freak the INDIAN SHIT &#%^&$%%&)%* stupid lit. damnit man. hah what the hell was it asking about lah. and the poem, eat shit lah. wth man. hah. then a short toilet break. then paper two. i was so shocked. i dont even know what the question was asking for. so i just wrote crap, leaving lines and writing big big. HAHAHAH SO DUMB LAH PLEASE.
so yeah, after the paper. still must write reflection on why i was late. this is exactly what i wrote. "i was late because i was waiting for people to move up at the locker. so when the crowd moved, i followed. but i walked very slowly. thats why i was late" -_-" corrective action, "i will walk faster and take note of the time next time" AHH EAT SHIT. and miss yeo accepted that. hah
anyway, mrs quek is really cute man. i raised my hand for damn long right. then she was on the stage holding the stack of papers, ready to pass to anyone. so yah. she was walking across the stage, touching her hair blahblah. hah then she didn see me at all! then in the end, miss hia came to me. hah mrs quek is damn cute lah.
and miss wong also. she walked here and there. then finally when she sat down, she needed to stand up again! hah damn funny man.
so after the paper. had a short time with me pet dino! hah. then he was saying, `eh your retarded best friend. then i was like `hmm?. and i didn look. i didn look at him. hah ohwells.
hmm so then went to talk to dricee they all. ohyah! SMARTY MEL is damn smart. she threw her bag plus all her rubbish into her locker, and locked it. with her key inside the locker! HAHA DAMN FUNNY. then she was frantically finding ways to open her locker. hah super funny. in the end, zhihao saved her. and dricee was so funny lah. he was shouting and screaming at miss hia for setting such a tough paper. super funny. i bet the classes could hear him lah. hes not that soft. and with his beauitful, COUGHS, prominent voice. HAHAHA stupid cedriccccc goh.
so yeah. then after that met up with jul ail nic and cor. three went off for remedial. leaving julia and i. leon came to join us. they did some work, while i stoned. then i slept. then julia left when cor and ail came. then nic came then we went to dover for lunch. im still feeling so full. i ate so damn much lah. ahh im such a fattttt pig.
hah so the bussed home. and yah tadah, im home now. gonna have tuition at eight. LAST TUITION. so happy! YAY. hahahah. actually i had damn lil lessons only man. but who cares. and the point is, my mum didn even ask about tuition. HAHA
hmm so yeah. i received an email (: its so sweet! yay kim's happy! ((:
hah anyway. feel like saying this. memories cant be erased. and we should be happy when we think about them. and try not to be sad when you compare it with the present. the best is, dont even compare. yupp. dont cry because its over, smile because it happened! (:
and let go of the brakes(memories) but dont forget them, theyre too beautiful and precious to be forgotten. but step on the accelerator, and move forward in life (:
or let God take the driver seat, its the best. let him control the steering wheel. he wants the best for you.
hah, feeling kinda happy right now. thanks to everyone who has always been there for me, without fail, rain or shine. so many so many of you. thank you alright? (: i love all of you!
i do regret, so so much. but wells, whats the point. all the "if only..." if only i hadnt this and hadnt that. if only i had this and that. ohwells. im happy that we did happen no matter what. thanks for everything.
let go and let God ;
9/18/2006 07:25:00 PM